Harmony and Balance: The Aesthetic Appeal of Challenge

Beauty is pain. We’ve all heard this. And life is pain. The reason behind both is a simple philosophic calculation:

If Beauty = Pain

And Life = Pain

Then Beauty = Life

The pain behind beauty is learning discipline. When we are off balance you can see it. It reveals itself in the quality of our hair, in our body latching onto water and fat, and in the actual physical proportional manifestation of our features. When an individual is said to be crooked, they are off balance. Characters with noses that jut off to one side may play the villain in movies. Conversely it’s difficult for us to find evil in someone aesthetically lovely. If a person has kind eyes but they’re a little wily, we somehow forgive them much easier than someone who on the outside appears as if he or she has no self respect.

I notice that the more difficult my life becomes, and the more that I feel challenged on a minute-to-minute basis, the more my features coordinate into symmetry. I noticed this first when I did the lemon cleanse for three days in 2013. My face had become puffy and detoxing was an emotional roller coaster. There was also physical hunger. At the end of the fast I ate this organic farmer’s market salad and felt as if it were sacrilegious. It was so delicious! The pictures from this time, when I put myself together and got out there, were beautiful! We appreciate beauty in things that we work hard for.

Putting in effort despite any immediate payoff is also respected by others. When you put in hard work toward building your physique, home, or family there is a gigantic payoff when beauty emerges from it. Any creation of beauty through struggle results in an immense beauty that we could not have created without the struggle. That tension goes into the work, if it’s art. Tension in our faces or muscles keeps the skin taut. Less consumption makes you light. Discipline makes everything easier…by making it harder. There is a respect that comes from others when they see that what beauty you have in your life was CREATED by YOU!

We need to understand that we are here to learn. When your soul was a part of the unified spirit, you knew everything! You had no wants, no desires. Your job here is to have a human experience. You need to find out what your purpose is because nothing will fulfill you until that time in which it dawns on you what you are here to CREATE. Most of us find this calling and then it cannot be ignored or denied. No matter how much we try to do something else, once you ignite your soul purpose (north node will give insight to this) it becomes this monster of its own.

For me, my soul purpose involves creating. It involves art and it involves astrology. Through times when I had the least guidance I had to look within. Everything outside felt wrong. I knew that I didn’t belong fitting into a mold that caused disharmony in my soul. That’s when I took on a mission to find this tension in others. To make it feel at peace, even for a moment. No matter the discomfort involved, being inauthentic is no longer an option for me because it’s detrimental to people LIKE me! If I let myself bend toward a way of existence that does not fit my inherent gut vibe of balance, I will forever be medicated. I will forever be false.

Before I understood my sensitivity as a strength, I suffered in other people’s worlds. Now I know where my peace is. I know where I’m centered. And now I know what to play with when I need some adjusting. That’s the amazing thing about astrology. It’s a chart from the heavens that explains EXACTLY the energies going on at the moment so you can identify difficult aspects and instead of triggering those, strengthen the BENEFICIAL aspects!

Negative aspects in astrology are simply warnings. It’s like a warning from your body. If your upper back is hurting from tension, you likely need to strengthen your lower back and core. You need to support areas of tension by strengthening the integral whole. If I am prone to having a messy home, I ABSOLUTELY MUST have a clean home for my life to be structured. Look at wherever you struggle. Look at what you don’t want to do on a daily basis. This is what you NEED to do to be ready for the inevitable changes in the weather. In the back scenario, it could be that an injury is in your 6th house potential. When igniting your inner warrior, however, and hopping on a fitness plan that balances out your entire life you may hop tracks and end up on a harmonious path of health. Maybe the maladies that could have come to you will instead be maladies that you help others overcome.

Instead of dealing with daily anxiety in not knowing what your path will be, you can take action and became stronger. You create a routine. You meet people along the way. You may look amazing in a way that you never had before from all of the discipline. Gaining the respect of others leads to new opportunities. It opens doors. You will always find doors open when you choose the more difficult path. The easy path, the one where you get something for free, results in a bunch of hiccups that you didn’t expect. You have to take control of your destiny or it will take control of you. That doesn’t sound very fun!

Identify right now physical ailments. That’s your first big task because those ailments have gotten so out of hand that they’re showing up causing physical pain. Deal with these. Take a sick day if you need to. Do nothing and find deep within you what feels wrong. How is this exposing itself in disharmony in your body? Upper back pain could be from sitting all day in a chair in front of a light box. Overstimulated in certain ways but under-stimulated in others.

The lifestyle that we’re living is not conducive to inner and outer health. Everyone is medicated. If you’re not, you’re actually the exception. It was mind boggling when I learned this. If you get to know enough people pretty well, they’ll let you know that you’re not alone. We hide so much from each other and this prevents us from growing as a community. Companies that embrace wellness and incorporate a fun atmosphere, positive reinforcement, and opportunities for health and leisure are rewarded with a creative, motivated staff that works as a team.

Sometimes making a change is not an option, or doesn’t appear to be. A lot of times we get wound up into a tight spot that gives us no way out. Say you’re working 9-5 with a job that you need to support your family and keep your home. That’s a pretty common scenario. Then all of a sudden there’s a break. If you don’t take it the universe has a way of showing you that SOMETHING’s got to give! I used to sell gym memberships at an elite gym in West Hollywood. One of our selling points was to explain to people who object with, “I need to worry about my family first,” that they cannot support their family if they themselves are not whole. If your ship is sinking you have no way of pulling up others in the same scenario. When you take time for peace and make yourself look and feel great you’ll reward those around you by not meddling too much, and also by really listening to what they need. They will take cues from you and become whole themselves. It’s all about energy. Really learning to diffuse and re-direct energy.

In work scenarios, I notice that people get disharmoniously involved in the work atmosphere. If you’re at work and everyone’s going out as a group but you don’t enjoy being around them, politely excuse yourself. There’s only so much work you can deal with. Plus it’s best that your colleagues don’t know the inner workings of your soul and life anyway. Think of them as competitors. You didn’t see Conor McGregor hanging out bro-style with Floyd Mayweather before their fight. Work is all about competition. Anything you say can and will be used against you. Keep your game face on at work. Use your breaks to re-center. After work is all about YOU time. If you have to go home to an annoying family, I definitely would join a gym. I love the solitude of getting on the elliptical and listening to gangster rap about shooting people. It makes me not fantasize about it in real life.

Okay that escalated quickly. Back to zen and tranquility…

I just honestly got off center thinking about office life and trying to find balance in that scenario. To cool off I went and made coffee. I’m looking out over the trees at my AirBnb here in Costa Rica while I hear Adele playing somewhere within the canopy. It’s beautiful! The beauty is what we need more of. Put an orchid or peace lily on your desk and maybe a little fountain with rocks underneath the desk. Get a gigantic rose quartz and leave it out in the sun to cleanse and charge all weekend when you’re off then have it radiate loving energy to your heart all week at work. Drink Synergy Kombucha. Watch a Russell Brand YouTube video on break. Self-publish something amazing you did today. Something that you’re truly proud of. These things always help me when I can’t control a tense external situation.

No matter how zen your life is there’s always going to be tension. We are here to learn. When we stop learning there is always misery or a catalyst that leads to more learning. This is why we should always understand ourselves and the energy around us. This truly gives us the advantage in gracefully hopping to an anticipated landing spot. Don’t expect to land for long though. You’re going to be moving along your whole entire life unless you’re supporting others who are moving. Depending on how big of a masochist you are, your difficulty level was decided before you embarked on this journey! Isn’t that amazing? YOU chose to experience a difficult existence or an easy one. It’s really no different than playing a video game. Do you want a game that you can beat and then move on to the next game? Do you want a game that you can never beat but just keep learning the deeper intricacies and hacks? Or do you want to play Tetris? All day…everyday. Dink…dink…pshew pshew pshew.

Some of us chose games that can’t be beaten in this lifetime. Games that we want to inspire for any subsequent incarnations, or until there is no more game. Is this all in my head? Did I make this whole thing up and if so, are the other players simply bots in my game? I hate it when my allegories become literal. If it’s my game, and I know the difficulty level, then I’m pretty sure I’m ready for another go at elimination and creation. I have only a backpack with me going into my next level. The elimination portion is leaving behind any tools that will not serve me in this next level and the creation is of course about creating enough beauty around me to make the heightened skill level as enjoyable as possible while dealing with challenges I’ve never seen before. Like attracts like. If you want to see beauty you have to make yourself beautiful. If you want to make money you have to spend money. It’s not fair! I know…but I didn’t choose Tetris either.

The Potato Diet: 3-day food prep plan for digestive issues

Resistant starch diet plan created by Bethany Ryan

I’ve tried many diets, both vegan and diets including meat. I did a lot of low-carb diets that left me craving more. I have experimented with vegan options that would not cause digestive issues. It was hard for me to find anything to eat when I couldn’t tolerate gluten. In both of these cases I have discovered that resistant starches offer an answer. They are satisfying. Anyone who has had trouble with digestion or bloating in the past knows that comfort foods are what you want to eat. Potatoes are a comfort food and with my preparation methods you can enjoy them without the traditional side-effects. This easy, 3-day meal prep plan can help you even out your system while enjoying some really satisfying traditional meals that many of us have avoided for years! Hope this helps.

Grocery List:

  • 3 – 5 lb bags of potatoes
  • 1 – 2 lb bag of lemons
  • 2 – Cans/jars sauerkraut
  • 2 – Jars pickled beets
  • Large bottle Bragg Organic Raw Apple Cider Vinegar with The Mother
  • Mayo, Vegenaise, or Miracle Whip
  • Vegan or regular sour cream (option for baked potatoes)
  • Earth Balance or non-vegan butter
  • Flavoring such as Himalayan Salt, Pepper, Cayenne Pepper, Turmeric, Garlic, Onion etc
  • Chives (option)
  • Parsley (option)
  • Garlic, fresh or minced (option for mash)
  • Soy, coconut, almond or regular milk (or other for mashed potatoes)
  • 3 – Large Grapefruits
  • Diet Ginger Beer (option for snacks)
  • Raw, unflavored almonds or walnuts
  • Meal prep containers (2 compartment + separate small side dish)
  • 3 – Gt’s Synergy Organic Kombucha “Trilogy” (option for lunches)
  • 3 gallons of store brand Alkaline Water or Distilled Water

Meal Prep Instructions:

Fill two large pots with water and a heaping pinch of Himalayan Sea Salt in each. Be sure that you don’t overfill the pots with water. I do this frequently. Leave enough room to add the potatoes without spillover. When the water boils add as many potatoes from the 3 bags as you can, dividing them up between the two pots. You can use the rest for snacks and boil them later.

Boil potatoes so they are rare to medium rare. Don’t overcook them. You want them slightly firm. The key to this diet is to LET THE POTATOES COOL completely before eating them. After boiling strain out the water and put 5-7 potatoes to the side to make mashed potatoes. Throw the rest in a large glass bowl and pop it in the refrigerator.

If you have any potatoes left you can boil these now. After cooking, keep 3 whole cooked potatoes in a bowl in the refrigerator to make baked potatoes for dinners. The rest (if there are any) will just be extras that you can keep in the fridge to snack on between meals.

You will slice the snack potatoes up and eat them cold with lemon, apple cider vinegar and sauerkraut on the side (after initial cooling). You can also eat them plain or with hot sauce.

Mashed Potatoes (hot)

While still hot mash up the 5-7 warm potatoes that you set aside with a fork, mixer, masher, or other. Add in your butter, milk, parsley, salt, pepper, cayenne, turmeric etc. There are many vegan mashed potato recipes online if you need inspiration.

They key is to allow the potatoes to cool once. This alters the structure of the starch molecule and makes it indigestible. It then moves through your small intestines to your large intestines in tact. Once it reaches the colon the body ferments the the potatoes. This creates butyrate and is what is going to heal your digestive tract.

Fermented foods are natural probiotics. That’s why we’re adding beets and sauerkraut for added flavor to dishes.

Lemon and vinegar are used because they are acidic and help to heal a stomach that may have trouble in the initial stages of digestion. Food then moves into the small intestines where it becomes alkaline. I think that antacids are counter-intuitive to the true mechanism behind the digestive system and actually lead to many more issues in the future.

Turmeric is an anti-inflammatory that works synergistically with black pepper. I recommend putting it in the potato salad to give it a little color.

Dish the mashed potatoes into individual fridge-safe (and microwave safe) covered containers and put them into the refrigerator to cool.

Potato Wedges (cold)

Take out half of the potatoes left that had been cooling. Slice the potatoes up as potato wedges, cubes, fries or however you like them.

When you slice them cool they stay in tact better.

Drizzle apple cider vinegar over the sliced potatoes. Squeeze a whole lemon over the top. Add some salt, pepper and cayenne pepper for flavor.

Option: Slice up some pickled beets and throw them on top. They will turn your potatoes red but enhance the flavor. They will also aid your liver enzymes in breaking down fats that you’re adding in preparation.

Put aside. You will be combining these potato wedges with the potato salad (below) in the food prep containers. You will then put these into the refrigerator for your meals.

Potato Salad (cold)

Chop the remaining cooled potatoes up into cubes. You can remove the peel if you want or leave it. Add Mayo, Vegenaise or Miracle Whip. There are all sorts of flavors now if you’re vegan. Jazz the potato salad up however you like.

Add some chives, salt, pepper, turmeric, mustard, cayenne, or whatever else you like on your potato salad.

ToGo Meal Prep for Lunch:

Put your two cold potato salads next to each other into medium containers that have lids. They can be divided if you prefer. Put the mashed potatoes into their own small containers so you can heat those up separately from the cold potato salads. Put the lids on and put the prepped potatoes into the refrigerator.

I recommend trying this diet for 3 days to reset your digestive tract. You can have the extra potatoes plain as snacks between meals. Eat them cold and as many as you want. You can also make them into other creations, such as baked potatoes for dinner.

Option: Put a Synergy Kombucha in with your lunch each day and some extra plain potatoes for snacks. Bring a lemon with you to squeeze onto the plain potatoes. You can keep them at your desk throughout the day.

Idea: Have hot water or tea, plain or with lemon, at work. This is AMAZING for getting your lymph system moving. The largest collection of lymph vessels is in the gut area so generally this EXTREMELY important system is affected by any digestive issues. It may even be responsible.

Sipping some hot water throughout the day sends a surge each time through your lymph system. This is what eliminates edema. So if your digestive issues have caused you to bloat, I would definitely recommend drinking warm water (from the red spout on the water or coffee machines) throughout the day.


You can have hot water with lemon, tea, black coffee, and grapefruit for breakfast. Do not eat grapefruit if you are taking any medications! Find out first if it’s contraindicated.

Idea: Boil a small pot of water with a whole lemon sliced in half in the water. Drink the hot lemon water.

This was recommended to me at one of those expensive weight loss centers. Doing this first thing in the morning is really great for losing weight!


Grapefruit, sauerkraut, raw unflavored almonds and walnuts, Diet Ginger Beer, and cold potatoes with lemon and apple cider vinegar.


Re-heated baked potato with butter, sour cream, salt, pepper, etc and:

  • Steak or seared tofu
  • Greens salad with garbanzo beans, cucumber, lemon and apple cider vinegar
  • Diet Ginger Beer or water

Before Bed:

Small glass of hot lemon water or caffeine-free ginger tea

More on Potato Diet Weight Loss:

The Joe Rogan Experience with Chris Kresser

Thomas DeLauer, Celebrity Diet Coach

Update: I stayed in an AirBnB in the middle of nowhere for a week and ate nothing but potatoes. I slept very well and my digestive issues went away. This gallery shows potatoes many ways. I enjoyed them most with lemon or lime, salt, pepper, and cayenne pepper.

2 Strange Health Theories that Might be True

1. An apple a day keeps the doctor away

This may be more important than you think. Apple seeds contain amygdalin which is reduced to cyanide in your blood. Because mother nature wouldn’t produce a negative without a positive, we can be assured that if you eat an apple and happen to eat some seeds with it, the other compounds in the apple (benzaldehyde and glucose) will bind with the cyanide and actually make something called laetrile which is also known as B17. This has long been thought to counteract cancer (according to holistic healthcare enthusiasts). Cyanide is in our drinking water anyway, so if you’re exposed to that you could possibly counteract it by just eating an apple a day as the old wives tale went. This is the same with apricots and peaches too. There are actually Eastern cultures where a man’s wealth is measured by the number of apricot trees he owns.

Note: Eat the seed…not the core. It’s inside the core. Sorry to confuse you. Look it up.

I’m not a chemist of course, so I don’t completely understand how the processes work. I just know that I was always worried about seeds when making juice. I knew that they had cyanide in them and was scared about dying. It turns out that drinking water is far more dangerous. As explained in my blog about cancer it’s important to maintain a balanced and healthy body free from poisons. The easiest way to do this is to get DISTILLED (not spring) water. Distilled water is reduced to it’s most essential molecular form, as we know as H2O. I do think that there is more to the “an apple a day keeps the doctor away” theory regardless. And do believe that seeds are involved…

2. White rice is the fountain of youth

White rice affects mitochondrial health. A grain of rice actually LOOKS like a mitochondrion. We can remember from biology class that mitochondria are essential to life forms and contain their own ancient DNA. Maybe this has something to do with collective unconscious…but I read way too much Jung.

So why does it make you Jung? [Sorry…not funny]

Aging is caused by a decline in mitochondrial function. The mitochondria make chemical energy called ATP.  Or simply, they turn matter into energy. Remember Einstein? He talked about this a lot. Just trust me, mitochondria are important for anti-aging and rice has the blueprint.


Free radicals, among other things, damage macro molecules including the DNA in the mitochondria. This causes mutations in the mitochondrial DNA. If you slow down the damage to the DNA you delay aging. Mitochondrial damage IS reversible.

More about Mitochondria:

Josie Grouse talks about meeting the Dalai Lama (he was eating rice):

Why is it spiritual? It’s healing, which puts your body into balance. This enhances your intuitive senses.

You’ll probably start noticing face masks and various other products involving rice after reading this. That always happens when you become aware about something. Keep in mind that white rice is one of the most inexpensive and widely available staples all around the world! I would figure out how to make it at home if you want to do a face mask.

For a spiritual connection I have absolutely noticed that simply eating some plain, steamed white rice during the day before a meditation influences my connection to the experience. I feel light and open. The Dalai Lama eats rice all day. If you’re doing a fast maybe try breaking the fast with a bowl of white rice and waiting about an hour before eating anything else. Even simple intermittent fasting followed by white rice alone will be an interesting control for you as an experiment. See how you feel. Maybe this feeling is your connection to the cosmos!

Gluten Free since ’93

(should be the white rice campaign slogan)

Slow Detox – Super Lemonade

I just made this up last night because frozen juice cans were on sale 10 for $10. I’m detoxing now but doing it in stages. Here are my self-created stages that could change at any time (links to blogs for more info):

Stage 1: Activated Charcoal Cleanse

Stage 2: Eat whatever you want while body readjusts away from alcohol and medications.

Stage 3: Shift toward vegan but not strict

Still eating sugar, butter, and mayo for example. Not really focusing on looking good. Still in the initial stages of detox. I feel that it’s easier to stick with this if you splurge with things like sugary lemonade instead of getting off course by going out drinking or eating pizza and burgers. I’m realizing that I really just like sugary drinks and that the fun of going out drinking was more about the fresh cocktails than the effects of the alcohol. I tested this by putting a box of white wine in my fridge. If I got the urge to drink I would have a glass of that. Bleh! By the end of a week I had only opted to drink twice and both times were painful. That proved to me that I’m not an alcoholic, I’m a sugarholic…at least right now. Candy is allowed at this stage. What other detox do you know of that allows Sour Patch Kids and gummi bears? My diet plan is the best!

Stage 4: Cut the crap

No more sugar, dairy condiments, etc. Make fresh lemonade by juicing lemons, apples, and raspberries.

Stage 5: Maintenance

Have meat and cocktails on special occasions and cheat days. Try to avoid dairy and gluten.

The lemonade theory for last night was more about making a “mocktail” that tastes good than about health. But I did want to incorporate some health to give me a natural buzz to go with the sugar. I added the super food Acai and raspberries to the frozen lemonade to give it a bougie quality. Without further adieu, the Super Lemonade recipe:

Super Lemonade

1 can pink or raspberry lemonade from freezer section

1 can original lemonade from freezer section

1 scoop Acai powder

1 package frozen raspberries

Puree Acai powder and frozen raspberries with some distilled water (enough to blend them well without sticking to Nutribullet or blender). Combine Acai/raspberry puree with both cans of frozen lemonade in giant pitcher. Fill to top with distilled water.


Add turmeric and black peppar for anti-inflammatory lemonade

Add cayenne peppar to boost metabolism

Add cinnamon to counteract sugar overload

Add rosemary for cognitive function and extra anti-oxidants

Stir and chill

The old bag and the mini cart: Priceless moments at HyVee

My experience at HyVee today:

It never ceases to amaze me the soundbites from the grocery bagger kids. This was my first job by the way (ages 14-16, all through the hot Iowa summers and freezing Iowa winters) so I can talk about them like that. No one else can hate on my baggers unless you tip. Then they wouldn’t care…though it’s doubtful any bagger cares about you in the slightest. Also, unfortunately, if you tip they will likely deny it because they’re still pure and they’re told not to accept tips. I wouldn’t accept tips when I was a bagger either. Now I always explain to the kids who bring my groceries out how life works and make them take the tip. It’s always nice seeing the first sparkle of evil in someone’s eyes. Priceless.

Today’s HyVee adventure was marked by me trying to use a mini-cart because I know that I can’t afford any more than what would fit in one. Of course everything is falling out by the time I pull up to checkout. I have yogurts stashed all around Bonnie’s reverse osmosis water and I’m unloading the stuff onto the conveyor belt as the items are passing over the checkout to the bagger. He looks less than enthused about the whole bagging world in general but then notices my mini cart and slowly looks over at the already 8 bags of groceries. He just keeps bagging but doesn’t even attempt putting any bags into the cart that is already pretty much full with just the 5 jugs of reverse osmosis water. So I push the cart up another foot n do kind of a short-down then long-up nod toward it.

I learned this move from Boca by the way. She does that whenever I’m eating so I know that she’s interested in my food. She looks at the food (long stare), then looks at me, then looks at the food. It’s like 4 count, 2 count, 4 count for emphasis. It means that she sees that I have food and that she’s interested in the food and wants me to give it to her. And, in case I’m stupid, she looks at the food again to be sure that she knows that I know.

So I look at the cart and then at the bagger letting him know that I know that he wasn’t able to reach the cart before but now would be able to because I released it to him. And just to give an accurate description of the scene, he has a 1950s-ish haircut which is probably not his fault but that of a lazy Great Clips professional. He seems to be dead inside and is also wearing glasses. I just know exactly how he’s feeling because by this time I’m feeling it too. He starts loading the bags on top of the jugs and they are overflowing so I’m holding the top ones so they don’t fall off. I say something like, “Is this all going to fit?” and he COMPLETELY ignores me. He doesn’t even flinch. It was brilliant. Then I say, as he’s bringing the bag of eggs over, “Are they going to fit?” and he just hands them to me so I have to let go of everything else with my left hand to grab them. Then I just say in a joking fashion to lighten the closing of the situation, “Do you think everything’s going to fall off?”

“I don’t know.”

Total blank stare OJ face. So I’m pulling out and everything’s falling off all over the place and I can’t stop laughing so everyone that sees me starts laughing. I feel that this story is a great example of why we shouldn’t mask our true feelings. Because chances are, if you’re miserable a lot of the rest of us are miserable too. When you realize that you’re not alone you feel a little less miserable. Also it’s nice to make light of a shitty situation like grocery shopping.

I just got home and let Bonnie and Boca eat the rest of the meatloaf to clear out the fridge. They love my cooking. I got little mini ice cream social party cups of ice cream, and gelato and Kemps pumpkin ice cream. So excited about these. I clearly have way too much mental energy right now. I need to go watch a Tina Fey show so I can feel better about myself.

Understanding Small-cell Lung Cancer Onset and ways to Prevent it

This blog is about preventing cancer in general, not specifically small-cell lung cancer. I have included simple ways that you can avoid ever enduring the invasive horror that many of my relatives have suffered.

Recently my mother was diagnosed with small-cell lung cancer. The prognosis was not good and my world kinda fell apart. Well…her world fell apart. This is about her, not me. It affects everyone.

At the ER after my mom had to leave work because of chest pains. Isn’t that a lovely color for a rose. Melon color roses. Maybe it’s more coral.

I’ve been researching the connection between environmental factors and gene mutations, as it was discovered that her lung cancer was the result of a gene mutation. What I’m learning is that the consumption of iodine is drastically diminished in modern days (post 1970s) since iodine is not added to foods as it was before. Instead there are harmful additives to food and fluoride added to the water. Without iodine and anti-oxidants to help our healthy cells defeat intruders we cannot flush these (toxins, heavy metals, free radicals) out of our system and they cause reactions within the body.

So what’s the deal with fluoride?

Have you ever heard the term, “There must be something in the water?”

Though fluoride is a blessing when you look at the teeth of some of our European comrades, you should consider that ingesting fluoride on a daily basis is excessive. Absorbing radiation from cell phones, airplanes, towers etc is too. So is exposure to chemicals on our produce, horomones in our meat, and any other toxins/poisons that we are exposed to on a daily basis. We have to combat these and drinking more is just a tipping point in my opinion. That’s the reason for the assault on fluoride. I’d assault cigarettes but she never smoked. It had to be environmental for the gene to mutate, as hers did.

Because water is one of the most essential and highly consumed aspects of our daily exchange, I’m focusing on hazards related to drinking water and how to decrease these. It bothers me that bottled water is in plastic containers. These are toxic and if the water is stored in them in hot warehouses the toxicity increases drastically. Distilled water seems to be the best option from my research because it is deduced to H2O. That’s all it is and adding any other atoms or molecules can cause unexpected reactions.

So what’s my option because I have to drink water?

If you can’t get a filtration system for your home then bottling distilled water from the grocery store yourself is the most controlled way to obtain it. It is distilled on site and the storage is minimal compared to water that has been sitting on the store shelf or in warehouses. I was drinking alkaline water for a long time but the alkaline properties diminish after a few days and you are faced with the same issue of the water sitting in plastic in warehouses and on the shelf.

Quick aside about alkaline water:

This is digressing, but an alkaline body is also ideal for fighting off disease. Poisons make our body acidic. The Kangen water filtration system is amazing. It’s installed in your home and you can adjust the alkalinity of the water to acidic or you can turn it up to 9.5 ph for example. I tried drinking this level of ph when I worked at a Spa in Westwood called Beba Beauty. Your body will start detoxing and you’ll get headaches. If you try alkaline water, ease your way into it. I’ve discovered other ways of alkalizing my body.

How to flush out toxins on a grand scale: Iodine

One of the most important things, it seems, in preventing cancer and other body ailments is simply supplementing iodine into your diet. You can buy it for $4 at Swanson.com or get it from juicing kale or eating seaweed salad. That’s how I used to get it. I am going to try supplementing it now.

EGFR Gene Mutations:

There is also a connection between testosterone levels and small-cell lung cancer. I wonder if the horomonal changes as women get older doesn’t contribute to the onset of cancers involving the epidermal growth factor receptor (EGFR). That is the gene that affects 1/3 of people who develop small-cell lung cancer. The reason for this is that it actually assists the tumor cells in obtaining a blood supply. The tumors then become very powerful and are able to attack healthy cells and convert them. I compare this to gossip. You could have a group of friends and have one toxic “cancerous” friend who starts spreading toxicity to the surrounding friends or cells. Then the cells become toxic themselves and kill off all of the good cells. So then the entire population/body is cancer due to metastasis. This should be avoided by taking gene suppression therapy or by using immunotherapy infusion.

Cancer prevention and the immune system: Healthy immune system vs toxic illustration.

How cancer spreads.

Information about iodine and how it flushes the system.

Some great resources where I got this info:





Cancer as a fungus

Some people believe that cancer is actually caused by a fungus.

Candida is a fungus that causes minor ailments. On a grander scale it can infect the gut and become a systemic, chronic condition. Whether candida is connected to the secondary onset of cancer (in any form) is something to consider.

Mold is also a common fungus that reproduces through spores that are released into the air. When these are inhaled “toxic mold syndrome” is experienced. This is deadly.

Conspiracy theories about the connection between these common fungi and cancer aside, these two simple extracts have more benefits for overall well-being than anything else I’ve ever researched.

-Oil of Oregano

-Iodine (sources include: Kelp, Seaweed, Green Vibrance by Vibrant Health, Liquid Iodine, Lugol’s Iodine, Nascent Iodine and/or Potassium Iodide)

Both are available for less than $10 at Swanson.com.    They are also available at Whole Foods and on Amazon.

For under $10 you can prevent candida from invading your system by supplementing Oil of Oregano into your diet with your daily multivitamin. It’s worth a shot! The biggest thing that I want people to get out of this blog is the importance of supplementing Oil of Oregano and Iodine into your diet.

More about the fungus/cancer connection:

Very cool retro movie!

More about the benefits of Oil of Oregano:

One last thing…

If you want my favorite all-around health secret (aside from Iodine and Oil of Oregano) it’s called Zyflamend by New Chapter. New Chapter has the most bio-available vitamins on the market. This is a blog in itself. Soon to come…

Venus Retrograde 2018 Guide – Friends, career, home and food.

Venus Retrograde Fall 2018 – Starts September 3 with effects being felt through the end of 2018

Venus (my favorite planet) is in retrograde for the rest of the year. While I could do something drastic, I am choosing this time to outsmart it and to look at the situation with the ice cream container half full.

Venus is the planet of beauty and love. When it’s in retrograde everyone looks like crap. Instead of changing your look or starting a new fitness program, try doing the things that you never let yourself do when you have control over your life!

Venus retrograde – Anyone want pizza?

Hate working out? Good. Sit on the couch right now and let your body go back to baseline. Everyone needs a reset at some point just like a computer. That’s what cheat days are about. That’s what you do when you plateau in a workout regimen. You completely change everything up or take time off. A step backward can give you momentum into moving forward further than you’ve ever gone before. It’s like a slingshot. In physics, inertia is a phenomenon where you change nothing so nothing changes. If you do what you always did, you’ll get what you always got. The slinghot scenario is pulling back, such in this case as pulling back on the self control when it comes to overly strict appearance standards, so you can be propelled into maximum velocity in your movement toward your target. Balance is the key to life so you want to hit the ground running when Venus is solidly heading direct again in January. This is the perfect time too since it’s winter and no one cares about your looks that much right now anyway. Get some sweaters and focus on things that are more internal and/or concrete.

Oh, hi. I’m really skinny under the sweater. You saw me last month. I was skinny. How could I be fat already? No one can eat 9,000 calories a day! (Jessica Simpson – Queen of the bait and switch).

I’ve noticed in my personal life, as I look back, that I make huge progress during Venus retrogrades. The last Venus retrograde was in Spring of 2017. You can think back to what was going on during this time. I started a business.

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The last Venus retrograde in Scorpio (just like that one that we’re in) was in 2010. Do you remember what was going on in the fall of 2010? Chances are it was a time of growing pains but looking back you may have conquered new territory both figuratively and possibly realistically.

Through the course of one lifetime, Venus only retrogrades in five signs:
Gemini – May/June 2004 + May/June 2012
Capricorn/early Aquarius – December 2005/January 2006 + December 2013/January 2014
Leo/early Virgo –July to September 2007 + July to September 2015
Aries – March/April 2009 + March/April 2017
Late Libra/Scorpio – October/November 2010 +  October/November 2018 (https://kellysastrology.com/2015/06/04/venus-retrograde-8-year-cycles/)

Looking at this chart I had major breakups, meltdowns, moves and career transitions during most of these times.

I’m going to use my move to Los Angeles as an example of how the last Venus in Scorpio worked for me.

I moved to Hollywood in the fall of 2010 and started working at a sound studio. I wasn’t making enough to own a car and my whole life had fallen apart in the year before. I broke up with the love of my life and also transitioned from Las Vegas where I was making huge money to making $12 an hour with no love and looking HORRIBLE. Right after this time, however, I had the time of my life. I met my best girlfriends as an adult during this time as we all struggled in Hollywood.

At the Los Angeles Museum of Art with Amanda having fun early 2011

Girls trip to San Diego August 2010 – Meagan (ambienslumberparty.com), Liz, Kristin and Me (of course and slightly unfortunately)

New Years 2010/2011 working for Dealer Dolls at a party in Santa Monica

Netflix and chill Friday nights at Amanda and Thayer’s – Fall 2010

Having fun in Los Angeles with friends Fall 2010 and Spring 2011

I became vegan and stopped drinking.

Feeling good eating vegan and not drinking.

I looked and felt great. I wasn’t driven by jealousy or anger because of my lifestyle. The most wretched fall lead to a much better lifestyle.

A nice vegan staple sample at Whole Foods – July 2011

Wow did I look forward to that vegan latte everyday! Those espresso pods give me a buzz!

Not to get ahead of myself too much, I’m eating a tub of ice cream right now. Venus retrograde is about relishing in your ugliness and doing things that make yourself uglier…because there’s no stopping it. Your plan is to dig yourself out of the ugly hole in January and by summer to be on track with a healthy lifestyle. Rome wasn’t built in a day.

Going for walks in the hills during my happy/healthy 2011


What kind of karma are we working with here? Akashic Records RESET

This is great! I am learning so much from the YouTube videos of Josie Grouse. A lot of the things that I’ve discovered on my own over the years I now understand on a deeper level and also feel more in control of these energies after studying her videos so that’s a really good thing for me. For a long time I have felt lost in this world and I’m trying to find my place. It’s difficult being an empath because going out in society is overwhelming. I absorb all of the energy around me and it’s confusing! Nobody seems to know what they want or need. People are not centered and it’s bizarre to me because I feel so confident in this area.

So what is an akashic record as she discusses in the video above?

An akashic record is EVERYTHING you’ve done and also everything that everyone else has done. It’s the push-pull record of the world. The video above is about the experiences that we own that have a bad vibe. If we take these experiences and rebrand them we can change the related karma. An example would be my Facebook. It had such a negative vibe. I couldn’t even stand logging into that site. Yet I own those experiences and they were good experiences. It’s just the creepy Facebook cult that judges them at face value not knowing any of the back story and applying their own biases for understanding. I decided to take ownership back of MY life, and my media. So I’m rebranding here with the real story. With a light story. With the story of my future. When an experience has a negative feeling we can cancel out any related bad karma by making amends on the issue.

The main image for this blog is of me and a girl that I was friends with. She started hooking up with my boyfriend behind my back and it turned into a complete disaster for a whole lot of people. For everyone to fix the karma in this case we would all go on to make better decisions in our future lives. I used to look at this picture and cringe but then I think that she was completely broke at the time and apparently envied my life to the extent that she wanted it for herself. I guess I should be flattered? I just think no one knew what was going on because we were all in our 20s and living in a city where people sell their souls for fame and fortune. What can you expect?

I have noticed that a lot of people do seemingly horrible things yet seem to have all the luck. You have to look at this from a balance perspective. Many people who have established great wealth and power do everything on a grander scale. They have to defeat enemies and secure their fort all day everyday. It’s nonstop. These people also empoly a lot of people, pay taxes that benefit so many, contribute to charity, and often take care of their entire extended families. That is a LOT of good karma. So we have to look at everything from a standpoint of balance. If you have some bad karma built up, make a pact with the universe. If you broke someone’s heart say to the universe, “I am so sorry Universe. I feel deep regret for breaking someone’s heart so I intend to be careful with hearts in the future to restore love to this world. I will not use people and I will do my best to make sure that my actions benefit my own life but also benefit the lives of everyone around me. I will try to get beyond simple desires of the flesh to discover the vast pain that resides within individual souls and do my best to heal what is broken to make the karmic path simpler for everyone on their way back to the unified soul. This will help me when I too return.”

Add some love stories to your akashic library! Maybe throw out some tragedies that you haven’t finished yet.

50 things I’ve Learned Over the Years

10 Days of Activated Charcoal Diary

2 days ago. Pre-cleanse, pre-pizza and junk food day yesterday. Skinny but not feeling great.

Day 1

I started my heavy metals cleanse today with 3 Glim Activated Charcoal Waters throughout the day plus a lemon Kombucha in the morning and a cayennade Kombucha in the afternoon.

Activated charcoal binds to positively charged ions in the body. These could be from radiation exposure or chemical byproducts. Usually we think of positive things as being good, but in chemistry positively charged ions are destructive to life. We want to neutralize these before they cause damage to our bodies.

To create an ideal disease fighting machine we need to alkalize our bodies. This is the fundamental idea behind polyphenals, antioxidants and juicing. Lemon is great for flushing the system so it’s a great thing to combine with the activated charcoal. Kombucha is just a good all-over feel-good elixter. I was reading that the activated charcoal can be harmful for people on medications because it will bind to them and flush them out of your body potentially. This is not good for those who need their medications! Obviously. Also it is not the best for those who already have digestion issues because supposedly it can slow everything up. I read that bentonite clay may help with this…pushing everything through. Bentonite clay has milder alkalizing and detoxifying properties. Be sure that you are getting food grade versions of both of these…though the FDA seems to require a disclaimer on Bentonite Clay that it’s not for ingestion. It’s marketed for face masks and foot detox but go ahead and eat it if you’re brave enough.

Where to buy Activated Charcoal

I got the Glim Charcoal Water from HyVee. It’s expensive though. I also ordered Activated Carbon on Chewy.com when I ordered my dogs new breed-specific dog food. I do not recommend this and explain that in Day 2. My favorite version, and the most economical, is the capsule form that I ordered on Swanson.com. This is explained again in the closing remarks. I’ll write more about the detoxing as it unfolds. I did feel immediately better when I drank the first activated charcoal water this morning. Just felt lighter. Be sure to shake it up if you get these or order the powder and mix it with water…or really anything. People even brush their teeth with activated charcoal. It’s the new big trend.

More info on the charcoal cleanse:

Activated Charcoal: A Strange Way to Detox

Day 2 Update

Another interesting resource/account that I found today after getting a headache:

My migraine miracle

I don’t get migraines but I do have a headache right now. And every joint in my body hurts. I think that the activated charcoal is binding to the chemicals that were hiding out in various places in my body. This is called “die off” according to the article above. I do not recommend buying the activated carbon from Chewy.com. It’s straight up activated carbon that they give people who swallow plutonium. Not activated charcoal. The one that I got from Chewy.com is large granules and they’re made for fish tank filters. Oops. Still doing experiments with them today. When I pour water over them some rise to the top and some stay at the bottom. Then pieces will bounce up and down like they don’t know where they belong. When they do this tons of little bubbles oxygenate the water. It’s really cool to watch. I don’t know what exactly is happening though…aside from a little dance.

Day 3 and 4 Update

You can put the activated carbon/charcoal at the bottom of your plants to absorb excess water and impurities including mold. This is something I discovered. Otherwise I feel normal. Seems like I have more of an appetite since I started detoxing.

Day 10 Update: Ice Cream Detox

*This is meant to be a joke (what follows). It does work but be sure to read my disclaimers at the end!

Some ice cream comes with activated charcoal already in it and is sold at boutiques!

If I take my activated charcoal before I take my ice cream I pass out for the best sleep of my life. Also I don’t get any of the effects of the dairy and sugar in the ice cream. It’s like the Olestra of the 90s. This is a self-study of course. Activated charcoal binds to pretty much everything. It sucks toxins out of your cells and liver. I am doing a cleanse with it to try to undo damage caused when I was feeling sorry for myself. It’s ridiculous how much better I feel. I feel like myself again. If I drink I don’t get any of the affects of the alcohol. So that’s a waste of money trying to drink while doing this. The ice cream thing is a new phenomenon for me though. I wondered why it induces sleep. This probably has to do with ice cream always inducing sleep for me. The body has to process it and milk has tryptophan which makes you sleepy. I give Bonnie milk when she’s acting like a maniac and she falls asleep. I think that the activated charcoal interrupts the digestive process though and the body is just doing all kinds of crazy things so you just sleep through it. The body’s like, “You don’t even want to know!” Then you wake up and smell funny but after about an hour and a shower you feel amazing and don’t have an ice cream hangover.

*This study is only based on evidence and not past wisdom.

**Activated charcoal prevents absorption of vitamins and minerals so only attempt using it for bulimia on an infrequent basis.

Final Notes

Of the various versions I tried I recommend the capsules the most. I broke one open and it was shocking how much the charcoal particles expanded. It’s similar to opening up a new comforter or foam bed that you ordered in the mail. The tiny little activated charcoal molecules work like ants in the way of absorption. Think of an ant carrying a piece of twig that’s 50x its size. This is like the charcoal molecules. They are able to have a greater surface area by having many planes. The structure is jagged looking and toxins can adhere to all of these different planes. You don’t need much to have a huge affect on your entire system.

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