Harmony and Balance: The Aesthetic Appeal of Challenge

Beauty is pain. We’ve all heard this. And life is pain. The reason behind both is a simple philosophic calculation:

If Beauty = Pain

And Life = Pain

Then Beauty = Life

The pain behind beauty is learning discipline. When we are off balance you can see it. It reveals itself in the quality of our hair, in our body latching onto water and fat, and in the actual physical proportional manifestation of our features. When an individual is said to be crooked, they are off balance. Characters with noses that jut off to one side may play the villain in movies. Conversely it’s difficult for us to find evil in someone aesthetically lovely. If a person has kind eyes but they’re a little wily, we somehow forgive them much easier than someone who on the outside appears as if he or she has no self respect.

I notice that the more difficult my life becomes, and the more that I feel challenged on a minute-to-minute basis, the more my features coordinate into symmetry. I noticed this first when I did the lemon cleanse for three days in 2013. My face had become puffy and detoxing was an emotional roller coaster. There was also physical hunger. At the end of the fast I ate this organic farmer’s market salad and felt as if it were sacrilegious. It was so delicious! The pictures from this time, when I put myself together and got out there, were beautiful! We appreciate beauty in things that we work hard for.

Putting in effort despite any immediate payoff is also respected by others. When you put in hard work toward building your physique, home, or family there is a gigantic payoff when beauty emerges from it. Any creation of beauty through struggle results in an immense beauty that we could not have created without the struggle. That tension goes into the work, if it’s art. Tension in our faces or muscles keeps the skin taut. Less consumption makes you light. Discipline makes everything easier…by making it harder. There is a respect that comes from others when they see that what beauty you have in your life was CREATED by YOU!

We need to understand that we are here to learn. When your soul was a part of the unified spirit, you knew everything! You had no wants, no desires. Your job here is to have a human experience. You need to find out what your purpose is because nothing will fulfill you until that time in which it dawns on you what you are here to CREATE. Most of us find this calling and then it cannot be ignored or denied. No matter how much we try to do something else, once you ignite your soul purpose (north node will give insight to this) it becomes this monster of its own.

For me, my soul purpose involves creating. It involves art and it involves astrology. Through times when I had the least guidance I had to look within. Everything outside felt wrong. I knew that I didn’t belong fitting into a mold that caused disharmony in my soul. That’s when I took on a mission to find this tension in others. To make it feel at peace, even for a moment. No matter the discomfort involved, being inauthentic is no longer an option for me because it’s detrimental to people LIKE me! If I let myself bend toward a way of existence that does not fit my inherent gut vibe of balance, I will forever be medicated. I will forever be false.

Before I understood my sensitivity as a strength, I suffered in other people’s worlds. Now I know where my peace is. I know where I’m centered. And now I know what to play with when I need some adjusting. That’s the amazing thing about astrology. It’s a chart from the heavens that explains EXACTLY the energies going on at the moment so you can identify difficult aspects and instead of triggering those, strengthen the BENEFICIAL aspects!

Negative aspects in astrology are simply warnings. It’s like a warning from your body. If your upper back is hurting from tension, you likely need to strengthen your lower back and core. You need to support areas of tension by strengthening the integral whole. If I am prone to having a messy home, I ABSOLUTELY MUST have a clean home for my life to be structured. Look at wherever you struggle. Look at what you don’t want to do on a daily basis. This is what you NEED to do to be ready for the inevitable changes in the weather. In the back scenario, it could be that an injury is in your 6th house potential. When igniting your inner warrior, however, and hopping on a fitness plan that balances out your entire life you may hop tracks and end up on a harmonious path of health. Maybe the maladies that could have come to you will instead be maladies that you help others overcome.

Instead of dealing with daily anxiety in not knowing what your path will be, you can take action and became stronger. You create a routine. You meet people along the way. You may look amazing in a way that you never had before from all of the discipline. Gaining the respect of others leads to new opportunities. It opens doors. You will always find doors open when you choose the more difficult path. The easy path, the one where you get something for free, results in a bunch of hiccups that you didn’t expect. You have to take control of your destiny or it will take control of you. That doesn’t sound very fun!

Identify right now physical ailments. That’s your first big task because those ailments have gotten so out of hand that they’re showing up causing physical pain. Deal with these. Take a sick day if you need to. Do nothing and find deep within you what feels wrong. How is this exposing itself in disharmony in your body? Upper back pain could be from sitting all day in a chair in front of a light box. Overstimulated in certain ways but under-stimulated in others.

The lifestyle that we’re living is not conducive to inner and outer health. Everyone is medicated. If you’re not, you’re actually the exception. It was mind boggling when I learned this. If you get to know enough people pretty well, they’ll let you know that you’re not alone. We hide so much from each other and this prevents us from growing as a community. Companies that embrace wellness and incorporate a fun atmosphere, positive reinforcement, and opportunities for health and leisure are rewarded with a creative, motivated staff that works as a team.

Sometimes making a change is not an option, or doesn’t appear to be. A lot of times we get wound up into a tight spot that gives us no way out. Say you’re working 9-5 with a job that you need to support your family and keep your home. That’s a pretty common scenario. Then all of a sudden there’s a break. If you don’t take it the universe has a way of showing you that SOMETHING’s got to give! I used to sell gym memberships at an elite gym in West Hollywood. One of our selling points was to explain to people who object with, “I need to worry about my family first,” that they cannot support their family if they themselves are not whole. If your ship is sinking you have no way of pulling up others in the same scenario. When you take time for peace and make yourself look and feel great you’ll reward those around you by not meddling too much, and also by really listening to what they need. They will take cues from you and become whole themselves. It’s all about energy. Really learning to diffuse and re-direct energy.

In work scenarios, I notice that people get disharmoniously involved in the work atmosphere. If you’re at work and everyone’s going out as a group but you don’t enjoy being around them, politely excuse yourself. There’s only so much work you can deal with. Plus it’s best that your colleagues don’t know the inner workings of your soul and life anyway. Think of them as competitors. You didn’t see Conor McGregor hanging out bro-style with Floyd Mayweather before their fight. Work is all about competition. Anything you say can and will be used against you. Keep your game face on at work. Use your breaks to re-center. After work is all about YOU time. If you have to go home to an annoying family, I definitely would join a gym. I love the solitude of getting on the elliptical and listening to gangster rap about shooting people. It makes me not fantasize about it in real life.

Okay that escalated quickly. Back to zen and tranquility…

I just honestly got off center thinking about office life and trying to find balance in that scenario. To cool off I went and made coffee. I’m looking out over the trees at my AirBnb here in Costa Rica while I hear Adele playing somewhere within the canopy. It’s beautiful! The beauty is what we need more of. Put an orchid or peace lily on your desk and maybe a little fountain with rocks underneath the desk. Get a gigantic rose quartz and leave it out in the sun to cleanse and charge all weekend when you’re off then have it radiate loving energy to your heart all week at work. Drink Synergy Kombucha. Watch a Russell Brand YouTube video on break. Self-publish something amazing you did today. Something that you’re truly proud of. These things always help me when I can’t control a tense external situation.

No matter how zen your life is there’s always going to be tension. We are here to learn. When we stop learning there is always misery or a catalyst that leads to more learning. This is why we should always understand ourselves and the energy around us. This truly gives us the advantage in gracefully hopping to an anticipated landing spot. Don’t expect to land for long though. You’re going to be moving along your whole entire life unless you’re supporting others who are moving. Depending on how big of a masochist you are, your difficulty level was decided before you embarked on this journey! Isn’t that amazing? YOU chose to experience a difficult existence or an easy one. It’s really no different than playing a video game. Do you want a game that you can beat and then move on to the next game? Do you want a game that you can never beat but just keep learning the deeper intricacies and hacks? Or do you want to play Tetris? All day…everyday. Dink…dink…pshew pshew pshew.

Some of us chose games that can’t be beaten in this lifetime. Games that we want to inspire for any subsequent incarnations, or until there is no more game. Is this all in my head? Did I make this whole thing up and if so, are the other players simply bots in my game? I hate it when my allegories become literal. If it’s my game, and I know the difficulty level, then I’m pretty sure I’m ready for another go at elimination and creation. I have only a backpack with me going into my next level. The elimination portion is leaving behind any tools that will not serve me in this next level and the creation is of course about creating enough beauty around me to make the heightened skill level as enjoyable as possible while dealing with challenges I’ve never seen before. Like attracts like. If you want to see beauty you have to make yourself beautiful. If you want to make money you have to spend money. It’s not fair! I know…but I didn’t choose Tetris either.

The Potato Diet: 3-day food prep plan for digestive issues

Resistant starch diet plan created by Bethany Ryan

I’ve tried many diets, both vegan and diets including meat. I did a lot of low-carb diets that left me craving more. I have experimented with vegan options that would not cause digestive issues. It was hard for me to find anything to eat when I couldn’t tolerate gluten. In both of these cases I have discovered that resistant starches offer an answer. They are satisfying. Anyone who has had trouble with digestion or bloating in the past knows that comfort foods are what you want to eat. Potatoes are a comfort food and with my preparation methods you can enjoy them without the traditional side-effects. This easy, 3-day meal prep plan can help you even out your system while enjoying some really satisfying traditional meals that many of us have avoided for years! Hope this helps.

Grocery List:

  • 3 – 5 lb bags of potatoes
  • 1 – 2 lb bag of lemons
  • 2 – Cans/jars sauerkraut
  • 2 – Jars pickled beets
  • Large bottle Bragg Organic Raw Apple Cider Vinegar with The Mother
  • Mayo, Vegenaise, or Miracle Whip
  • Vegan or regular sour cream (option for baked potatoes)
  • Earth Balance or non-vegan butter
  • Flavoring such as Himalayan Salt, Pepper, Cayenne Pepper, Turmeric, Garlic, Onion etc
  • Chives (option)
  • Parsley (option)
  • Garlic, fresh or minced (option for mash)
  • Soy, coconut, almond or regular milk (or other for mashed potatoes)
  • 3 – Large Grapefruits
  • Diet Ginger Beer (option for snacks)
  • Raw, unflavored almonds or walnuts
  • Meal prep containers (2 compartment + separate small side dish)
  • 3 – Gt’s Synergy Organic Kombucha “Trilogy” (option for lunches)
  • 3 gallons of store brand Alkaline Water or Distilled Water

Meal Prep Instructions:

Fill two large pots with water and a heaping pinch of Himalayan Sea Salt in each. Be sure that you don’t overfill the pots with water. I do this frequently. Leave enough room to add the potatoes without spillover. When the water boils add as many potatoes from the 3 bags as you can, dividing them up between the two pots. You can use the rest for snacks and boil them later.

Boil potatoes so they are rare to medium rare. Don’t overcook them. You want them slightly firm. The key to this diet is to LET THE POTATOES COOL completely before eating them. After boiling strain out the water and put 5-7 potatoes to the side to make mashed potatoes. Throw the rest in a large glass bowl and pop it in the refrigerator.

If you have any potatoes left you can boil these now. After cooking, keep 3 whole cooked potatoes in a bowl in the refrigerator to make baked potatoes for dinners. The rest (if there are any) will just be extras that you can keep in the fridge to snack on between meals.

You will slice the snack potatoes up and eat them cold with lemon, apple cider vinegar and sauerkraut on the side (after initial cooling). You can also eat them plain or with hot sauce.

Mashed Potatoes (hot)

While still hot mash up the 5-7 warm potatoes that you set aside with a fork, mixer, masher, or other. Add in your butter, milk, parsley, salt, pepper, cayenne, turmeric etc. There are many vegan mashed potato recipes online if you need inspiration.

They key is to allow the potatoes to cool once. This alters the structure of the starch molecule and makes it indigestible. It then moves through your small intestines to your large intestines in tact. Once it reaches the colon the body ferments the the potatoes. This creates butyrate and is what is going to heal your digestive tract.

Fermented foods are natural probiotics. That’s why we’re adding beets and sauerkraut for added flavor to dishes.

Lemon and vinegar are used because they are acidic and help to heal a stomach that may have trouble in the initial stages of digestion. Food then moves into the small intestines where it becomes alkaline. I think that antacids are counter-intuitive to the true mechanism behind the digestive system and actually lead to many more issues in the future.

Turmeric is an anti-inflammatory that works synergistically with black pepper. I recommend putting it in the potato salad to give it a little color.

Dish the mashed potatoes into individual fridge-safe (and microwave safe) covered containers and put them into the refrigerator to cool.

Potato Wedges (cold)

Take out half of the potatoes left that had been cooling. Slice the potatoes up as potato wedges, cubes, fries or however you like them.

When you slice them cool they stay in tact better.

Drizzle apple cider vinegar over the sliced potatoes. Squeeze a whole lemon over the top. Add some salt, pepper and cayenne pepper for flavor.

Option: Slice up some pickled beets and throw them on top. They will turn your potatoes red but enhance the flavor. They will also aid your liver enzymes in breaking down fats that you’re adding in preparation.

Put aside. You will be combining these potato wedges with the potato salad (below) in the food prep containers. You will then put these into the refrigerator for your meals.

Potato Salad (cold)

Chop the remaining cooled potatoes up into cubes. You can remove the peel if you want or leave it. Add Mayo, Vegenaise or Miracle Whip. There are all sorts of flavors now if you’re vegan. Jazz the potato salad up however you like.

Add some chives, salt, pepper, turmeric, mustard, cayenne, or whatever else you like on your potato salad.

ToGo Meal Prep for Lunch:

Put your two cold potato salads next to each other into medium containers that have lids. They can be divided if you prefer. Put the mashed potatoes into their own small containers so you can heat those up separately from the cold potato salads. Put the lids on and put the prepped potatoes into the refrigerator.

I recommend trying this diet for 3 days to reset your digestive tract. You can have the extra potatoes plain as snacks between meals. Eat them cold and as many as you want. You can also make them into other creations, such as baked potatoes for dinner.

Option: Put a Synergy Kombucha in with your lunch each day and some extra plain potatoes for snacks. Bring a lemon with you to squeeze onto the plain potatoes. You can keep them at your desk throughout the day.

Idea: Have hot water or tea, plain or with lemon, at work. This is AMAZING for getting your lymph system moving. The largest collection of lymph vessels is in the gut area so generally this EXTREMELY important system is affected by any digestive issues. It may even be responsible.

Sipping some hot water throughout the day sends a surge each time through your lymph system. This is what eliminates edema. So if your digestive issues have caused you to bloat, I would definitely recommend drinking warm water (from the red spout on the water or coffee machines) throughout the day.


You can have hot water with lemon, tea, black coffee, and grapefruit for breakfast. Do not eat grapefruit if you are taking any medications! Find out first if it’s contraindicated.

Idea: Boil a small pot of water with a whole lemon sliced in half in the water. Drink the hot lemon water.

This was recommended to me at one of those expensive weight loss centers. Doing this first thing in the morning is really great for losing weight!


Grapefruit, sauerkraut, raw unflavored almonds and walnuts, Diet Ginger Beer, and cold potatoes with lemon and apple cider vinegar.


Re-heated baked potato with butter, sour cream, salt, pepper, etc and:

  • Steak or seared tofu
  • Greens salad with garbanzo beans, cucumber, lemon and apple cider vinegar
  • Diet Ginger Beer or water

Before Bed:

Small glass of hot lemon water or caffeine-free ginger tea

More on Potato Diet Weight Loss:

The Joe Rogan Experience with Chris Kresser

Thomas DeLauer, Celebrity Diet Coach

Update: I stayed in an AirBnB in the middle of nowhere for a week and ate nothing but potatoes. I slept very well and my digestive issues went away. This gallery shows potatoes many ways. I enjoyed them most with lemon or lime, salt, pepper, and cayenne pepper.

Revenge of the Humors

You might recall from history class that certain eras in European history were less than sanitary. Lately I’m obsessed with Versailles and the court of Louis XIV. The court apparently bathed very little because they found the opening of the pores when wet to be a detriment, especially considering the safety of the water itself.

Revenge of the Humors – Louis XIV trying to remain in balance.

The water contained micro-organisms that could make a person deathly ill. If you think of the costumes of this time you’ll remember that powder wigs were all the rage.

Do I look fab?

If we think of modern-day dry shampoo being powdered talc, it makes sense that these dirty folks would opt for other ways to cleanse. Powders clean us without that filthy water.

At the time of Louis XIV people washed their hands with alcohol upon rising in the morning.

Have us a sip?

Alcohol was actually a drink of choice in the past because it was safer to drink than plain water. Alcohol is a disinfectant. I keep rubbing alcohol and vinegar in spray bottles in my house and use them for everything. I also use bentonite clay and activated charcoal powder a lot for their propensity to bind to all of the harmful chemicals that we come into contact with. See…no water!

Just now I did a foot soak with bentonite clay and red wine vinegar. Then I sprayed myself down with red wine vinegar and threw some clean clothes on. It felt amazing. This was just an experiment. Vinegar is amazing for the skin. It alkalizes the skin. This is what a toner is, if you didn’t know. You can use vinegar as a face toner after cleansing and as a hair rinse to remove residue. Sometimes I’ll do a water-less face wash at night too. I just smear coconut oil all over my face and whipe it off with a paper towel. Voila! Like attracts like. It binds to the bad oil and nourishes my skin with it’s richness. I feel so amazing!

I’m doing a detox right now and have been documenting the stages on here. You can get a lot of toxins out of the body through the feet. This is probably why my foot soak felt so amazing just now. The bentonite clay draws out toxins the same way that Epsom or Himalayan salt would. It’s even more effective. It also contains trace minerals. People do face masks with bentonite clay and vinegar. I figured I’d do the face mask on my feet and just made a sludge with the clay and vinegar. I also threw in some Himalayan sea salt. Definitely feel rejuvenated post-soak.

Warning: If you do this, do not let the bentonite clay go down the drain because it will clog it. Then you’ll try throwing Draino, the most toxic substance known to man, down after to chase it and the bentonite clay will neutralize the Draino and expand while absorbing it. You’ll end up with a major plumbing problem.

Back to balancing the humors/cleaning and detoxing without water…

Another really gross way to detox is by oil pulling. You put your oil type of choice (usually coconut oil) in your mouth and swish it around. It pulls toxins out of your cheeks and teeth. I like adding oil of oregano and activated charcoal. The oil of oregano freshens the mouth and kills micro-organisms. The activated charcoal binds to toxins. This makes me feel better about them swishing around in my mouth for 20 minutes. I want to make sure that they don’t go back into my body so I feel better that they are killed in my mouth and adsorbed by the charcoal. After 20 minutes I spit the nasty black mixture into a bag and throw it in the trash (again not down the drain). Then I swish with water and sea salt to draw out any remaining crud and rinse. Oil pulling makes a HUGE difference in the cleanliness of the mouth. It can even clear out cavities to prevent them from getting worse. It majorly whitens the teeth. You just have to be aware that the activated charcoal can stain your mouth for a bit. You can put Vaseline on your lips before starting the swish to minimize temporary staining. I love to floss post oil pulling. I can feel the gritty activated charcoal between my teeth grabbing up all of the icky stuff. Then I swish again with the salt water. You should always do mouthwash of some sort after flossing. The bacteria that you stir up is dangerous if you swallow it. It’s best to oil pull right when you wake up to get all of that bacteria out before you eat anything. Unfortunately oil pulling is not fun at all. It’s miserable the whole time. I’m lazy about doing it lately.

What I’ve learned about the humors is that it was believed by the ancient Greeks and into the era of Louis XIV that people are predisposed to certain constitutions. There were elements that one could come into contact with that were thought to throw off the humors. This would lead to malaise and behavioral problems.

Cool Old School and Eastern Humor Charts

Beyond humors, there are the 8 constitutions that most acupuncturists will identify. They might not tell you what yours is, but chances are that your care plan is based on one of these 8 constitutions. And you should learn what yours is and adjust your diet to live a more vital life. My constitution is weak kidneys and chicken and alcohol are pretty much lethal for me. Still, that’s all I ingested this spring. Probably had a lot to do with my downfall but that’s another blog.

Try to look at the 8 types below and discern, possibly based on your history of issues with organs or sensitivity to food, to find out what constitution you are. Take note of some foods that are naturally agreeable for you. Have you noticed that you feel more vital when you’ve done certain health plans in the past? Diets are dependent on the individual. I do not believe that there is one cut and dried solution to health. Your food prescription is like any other medicine. Some people take insulin and some people take mood stabilizers. These are both “medicine” but are completely different from one another. Food is the same. You need to figure out what foods will benefit your body to live the most vital life possible. This should be a priority. Below I have posted the 8 constitutions and their food prescriptions.


If you find humors to be as intriguing as I do, below I have posted juicy article from the creative commons. Enjoy!

The 4 Humors and Erythrocyte Sedimentation: The Most Influential Observation in Medical History

Full-text PDF Download Here


2 Strange Health Theories that Might be True

1. An apple a day keeps the doctor away

This may be more important than you think. Apple seeds contain amygdalin which is reduced to cyanide in your blood. Because mother nature wouldn’t produce a negative without a positive, we can be assured that if you eat an apple and happen to eat some seeds with it, the other compounds in the apple (benzaldehyde and glucose) will bind with the cyanide and actually make something called laetrile which is also known as B17. This has long been thought to counteract cancer (according to holistic healthcare enthusiasts). Cyanide is in our drinking water anyway, so if you’re exposed to that you could possibly counteract it by just eating an apple a day as the old wives tale went. This is the same with apricots and peaches too. There are actually Eastern cultures where a man’s wealth is measured by the number of apricot trees he owns.

Note: Eat the seed…not the core. It’s inside the core. Sorry to confuse you. Look it up.

I’m not a chemist of course, so I don’t completely understand how the processes work. I just know that I was always worried about seeds when making juice. I knew that they had cyanide in them and was scared about dying. It turns out that drinking water is far more dangerous. As explained in my blog about cancer it’s important to maintain a balanced and healthy body free from poisons. The easiest way to do this is to get DISTILLED (not spring) water. Distilled water is reduced to it’s most essential molecular form, as we know as H2O. I do think that there is more to the “an apple a day keeps the doctor away” theory regardless. And do believe that seeds are involved…

2. White rice is the fountain of youth

White rice affects mitochondrial health. A grain of rice actually LOOKS like a mitochondrion. We can remember from biology class that mitochondria are essential to life forms and contain their own ancient DNA. Maybe this has something to do with collective unconscious…but I read way too much Jung.

So why does it make you Jung? [Sorry…not funny]

Aging is caused by a decline in mitochondrial function. The mitochondria make chemical energy called ATP.  Or simply, they turn matter into energy. Remember Einstein? He talked about this a lot. Just trust me, mitochondria are important for anti-aging and rice has the blueprint.


Free radicals, among other things, damage macro molecules including the DNA in the mitochondria. This causes mutations in the mitochondrial DNA. If you slow down the damage to the DNA you delay aging. Mitochondrial damage IS reversible.

More about Mitochondria:

Josie Grouse talks about meeting the Dalai Lama (he was eating rice):

Why is it spiritual? It’s healing, which puts your body into balance. This enhances your intuitive senses.

You’ll probably start noticing face masks and various other products involving rice after reading this. That always happens when you become aware about something. Keep in mind that white rice is one of the most inexpensive and widely available staples all around the world! I would figure out how to make it at home if you want to do a face mask.

For a spiritual connection I have absolutely noticed that simply eating some plain, steamed white rice during the day before a meditation influences my connection to the experience. I feel light and open. The Dalai Lama eats rice all day. If you’re doing a fast maybe try breaking the fast with a bowl of white rice and waiting about an hour before eating anything else. Even simple intermittent fasting followed by white rice alone will be an interesting control for you as an experiment. See how you feel. Maybe this feeling is your connection to the cosmos!

Gluten Free since ’93

(should be the white rice campaign slogan)

Black Box Facebook 2018 – What it means, what you should know, and when it’s happening.

Tomorrow is the Facebook blackout.

What it means:

It means that women are sick of being harassed.

What you should know:

Facebook would look a lot different without women.

When it’s happening:

8-9pm Sunday September 30, 2018

Some of my friends have already put the black box up as their profile pic. It’s supposed to be a secret message sent to only women, but I think that this needs to be grander than that.

Tell your friends, wives, mothers, sisters, aunts, cousins and daughters to put up a black box as their profile image tomorrow night at 8 p.m. for an hour.

I am starting early because of time zones. I’ll probably go based on LA and take it down based on New York. So mine will be up for a few hours.

To participate right click with your mouse the picture below and save it to your desktop. Then upload it as your profile photo on Facebook. – Women Facebook Blackout 2018 Profile Picture Sunday September 30, 2018 8-9pm

If the goal is to scare women off, the predators on that sight are doing an AMAZING job. The more of an impact this movement makes tomorrow the stronger the urge will be to create policies that protect us. This includes preventing our information being hacked through the sight and fake accounts made by predators and criminals.

Understanding Small-cell Lung Cancer Onset and ways to Prevent it

This blog is about preventing cancer in general, not specifically small-cell lung cancer. I have included simple ways that you can avoid ever enduring the invasive horror that many of my relatives have suffered.

Recently my mother was diagnosed with small-cell lung cancer. The prognosis was not good and my world kinda fell apart. Well…her world fell apart. This is about her, not me. It affects everyone.

At the ER after my mom had to leave work because of chest pains. Isn’t that a lovely color for a rose. Melon color roses. Maybe it’s more coral.

I’ve been researching the connection between environmental factors and gene mutations, as it was discovered that her lung cancer was the result of a gene mutation. What I’m learning is that the consumption of iodine is drastically diminished in modern days (post 1970s) since iodine is not added to foods as it was before. Instead there are harmful additives to food and fluoride added to the water. Without iodine and anti-oxidants to help our healthy cells defeat intruders we cannot flush these (toxins, heavy metals, free radicals) out of our system and they cause reactions within the body.

So what’s the deal with fluoride?

Have you ever heard the term, “There must be something in the water?”

Though fluoride is a blessing when you look at the teeth of some of our European comrades, you should consider that ingesting fluoride on a daily basis is excessive. Absorbing radiation from cell phones, airplanes, towers etc is too. So is exposure to chemicals on our produce, horomones in our meat, and any other toxins/poisons that we are exposed to on a daily basis. We have to combat these and drinking more is just a tipping point in my opinion. That’s the reason for the assault on fluoride. I’d assault cigarettes but she never smoked. It had to be environmental for the gene to mutate, as hers did.

Because water is one of the most essential and highly consumed aspects of our daily exchange, I’m focusing on hazards related to drinking water and how to decrease these. It bothers me that bottled water is in plastic containers. These are toxic and if the water is stored in them in hot warehouses the toxicity increases drastically. Distilled water seems to be the best option from my research because it is deduced to H2O. That’s all it is and adding any other atoms or molecules can cause unexpected reactions.

So what’s my option because I have to drink water?

If you can’t get a filtration system for your home then bottling distilled water from the grocery store yourself is the most controlled way to obtain it. It is distilled on site and the storage is minimal compared to water that has been sitting on the store shelf or in warehouses. I was drinking alkaline water for a long time but the alkaline properties diminish after a few days and you are faced with the same issue of the water sitting in plastic in warehouses and on the shelf.

Quick aside about alkaline water:

This is digressing, but an alkaline body is also ideal for fighting off disease. Poisons make our body acidic. The Kangen water filtration system is amazing. It’s installed in your home and you can adjust the alkalinity of the water to acidic or you can turn it up to 9.5 ph for example. I tried drinking this level of ph when I worked at a Spa in Westwood called Beba Beauty. Your body will start detoxing and you’ll get headaches. If you try alkaline water, ease your way into it. I’ve discovered other ways of alkalizing my body.

How to flush out toxins on a grand scale: Iodine

One of the most important things, it seems, in preventing cancer and other body ailments is simply supplementing iodine into your diet. You can buy it for $4 at Swanson.com or get it from juicing kale or eating seaweed salad. That’s how I used to get it. I am going to try supplementing it now.

EGFR Gene Mutations:

There is also a connection between testosterone levels and small-cell lung cancer. I wonder if the horomonal changes as women get older doesn’t contribute to the onset of cancers involving the epidermal growth factor receptor (EGFR). That is the gene that affects 1/3 of people who develop small-cell lung cancer. The reason for this is that it actually assists the tumor cells in obtaining a blood supply. The tumors then become very powerful and are able to attack healthy cells and convert them. I compare this to gossip. You could have a group of friends and have one toxic “cancerous” friend who starts spreading toxicity to the surrounding friends or cells. Then the cells become toxic themselves and kill off all of the good cells. So then the entire population/body is cancer due to metastasis. This should be avoided by taking gene suppression therapy or by using immunotherapy infusion.

Cancer prevention and the immune system: Healthy immune system vs toxic illustration.

How cancer spreads.

Information about iodine and how it flushes the system.

Some great resources where I got this info:





Cancer as a fungus

Some people believe that cancer is actually caused by a fungus.

Candida is a fungus that causes minor ailments. On a grander scale it can infect the gut and become a systemic, chronic condition. Whether candida is connected to the secondary onset of cancer (in any form) is something to consider.

Mold is also a common fungus that reproduces through spores that are released into the air. When these are inhaled “toxic mold syndrome” is experienced. This is deadly.

Conspiracy theories about the connection between these common fungi and cancer aside, these two simple extracts have more benefits for overall well-being than anything else I’ve ever researched.

-Oil of Oregano

-Iodine (sources include: Kelp, Seaweed, Green Vibrance by Vibrant Health, Liquid Iodine, Lugol’s Iodine, Nascent Iodine and/or Potassium Iodide)

Both are available for less than $10 at Swanson.com.    They are also available at Whole Foods and on Amazon.

For under $10 you can prevent candida from invading your system by supplementing Oil of Oregano into your diet with your daily multivitamin. It’s worth a shot! The biggest thing that I want people to get out of this blog is the importance of supplementing Oil of Oregano and Iodine into your diet.

More about the fungus/cancer connection:

Very cool retro movie!

More about the benefits of Oil of Oregano:

One last thing…

If you want my favorite all-around health secret (aside from Iodine and Oil of Oregano) it’s called Zyflamend by New Chapter. New Chapter has the most bio-available vitamins on the market. This is a blog in itself. Soon to come…

Venus Retrograde 2018 Guide – Friends, career, home and food.

Venus Retrograde Fall 2018 – Starts September 3 with effects being felt through the end of 2018

Venus (my favorite planet) is in retrograde for the rest of the year. While I could do something drastic, I am choosing this time to outsmart it and to look at the situation with the ice cream container half full.

Venus is the planet of beauty and love. When it’s in retrograde everyone looks like crap. Instead of changing your look or starting a new fitness program, try doing the things that you never let yourself do when you have control over your life!

Venus retrograde – Anyone want pizza?

Hate working out? Good. Sit on the couch right now and let your body go back to baseline. Everyone needs a reset at some point just like a computer. That’s what cheat days are about. That’s what you do when you plateau in a workout regimen. You completely change everything up or take time off. A step backward can give you momentum into moving forward further than you’ve ever gone before. It’s like a slingshot. In physics, inertia is a phenomenon where you change nothing so nothing changes. If you do what you always did, you’ll get what you always got. The slinghot scenario is pulling back, such in this case as pulling back on the self control when it comes to overly strict appearance standards, so you can be propelled into maximum velocity in your movement toward your target. Balance is the key to life so you want to hit the ground running when Venus is solidly heading direct again in January. This is the perfect time too since it’s winter and no one cares about your looks that much right now anyway. Get some sweaters and focus on things that are more internal and/or concrete.

Oh, hi. I’m really skinny under the sweater. You saw me last month. I was skinny. How could I be fat already? No one can eat 9,000 calories a day! (Jessica Simpson – Queen of the bait and switch).

I’ve noticed in my personal life, as I look back, that I make huge progress during Venus retrogrades. The last Venus retrograde was in Spring of 2017. You can think back to what was going on during this time. I started a business.

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The last Venus retrograde in Scorpio (just like that one that we’re in) was in 2010. Do you remember what was going on in the fall of 2010? Chances are it was a time of growing pains but looking back you may have conquered new territory both figuratively and possibly realistically.

Through the course of one lifetime, Venus only retrogrades in five signs:
Gemini – May/June 2004 + May/June 2012
Capricorn/early Aquarius – December 2005/January 2006 + December 2013/January 2014
Leo/early Virgo –July to September 2007 + July to September 2015
Aries – March/April 2009 + March/April 2017
Late Libra/Scorpio – October/November 2010 +  October/November 2018 (https://kellysastrology.com/2015/06/04/venus-retrograde-8-year-cycles/)

Looking at this chart I had major breakups, meltdowns, moves and career transitions during most of these times.

I’m going to use my move to Los Angeles as an example of how the last Venus in Scorpio worked for me.

I moved to Hollywood in the fall of 2010 and started working at a sound studio. I wasn’t making enough to own a car and my whole life had fallen apart in the year before. I broke up with the love of my life and also transitioned from Las Vegas where I was making huge money to making $12 an hour with no love and looking HORRIBLE. Right after this time, however, I had the time of my life. I met my best girlfriends as an adult during this time as we all struggled in Hollywood.

At the Los Angeles Museum of Art with Amanda having fun early 2011

Girls trip to San Diego August 2010 – Meagan (ambienslumberparty.com), Liz, Kristin and Me (of course and slightly unfortunately)

New Years 2010/2011 working for Dealer Dolls at a party in Santa Monica

Netflix and chill Friday nights at Amanda and Thayer’s – Fall 2010

Having fun in Los Angeles with friends Fall 2010 and Spring 2011

I became vegan and stopped drinking.

Feeling good eating vegan and not drinking.

I looked and felt great. I wasn’t driven by jealousy or anger because of my lifestyle. The most wretched fall lead to a much better lifestyle.

A nice vegan staple sample at Whole Foods – July 2011

Wow did I look forward to that vegan latte everyday! Those espresso pods give me a buzz!

Not to get ahead of myself too much, I’m eating a tub of ice cream right now. Venus retrograde is about relishing in your ugliness and doing things that make yourself uglier…because there’s no stopping it. Your plan is to dig yourself out of the ugly hole in January and by summer to be on track with a healthy lifestyle. Rome wasn’t built in a day.

Going for walks in the hills during my happy/healthy 2011


Manifestation Reiki Sound that Works

Okay I have to share another manifestation frequency track that I did last night. My life is already changing.

Waking up from a soul cleanse is jarring by the way. You feel tired…like some demon has just been exercised from your body and you are starving to fill up all the space it was taking. It feels a lot like how I felt at vollyball tournaments on Saturday mornings. Just exhausted but with a great journey before you. And wanting to eat junk food for energy. You’ll probably end up ordering pizza.

What kind of karma are we working with here? Akashic Records RESET

This is great! I am learning so much from the YouTube videos of Josie Grouse. A lot of the things that I’ve discovered on my own over the years I now understand on a deeper level and also feel more in control of these energies after studying her videos so that’s a really good thing for me. For a long time I have felt lost in this world and I’m trying to find my place. It’s difficult being an empath because going out in society is overwhelming. I absorb all of the energy around me and it’s confusing! Nobody seems to know what they want or need. People are not centered and it’s bizarre to me because I feel so confident in this area.

So what is an akashic record as she discusses in the video above?

An akashic record is EVERYTHING you’ve done and also everything that everyone else has done. It’s the push-pull record of the world. The video above is about the experiences that we own that have a bad vibe. If we take these experiences and rebrand them we can change the related karma. An example would be my Facebook. It had such a negative vibe. I couldn’t even stand logging into that site. Yet I own those experiences and they were good experiences. It’s just the creepy Facebook cult that judges them at face value not knowing any of the back story and applying their own biases for understanding. I decided to take ownership back of MY life, and my media. So I’m rebranding here with the real story. With a light story. With the story of my future. When an experience has a negative feeling we can cancel out any related bad karma by making amends on the issue.

The main image for this blog is of me and a girl that I was friends with. She started hooking up with my boyfriend behind my back and it turned into a complete disaster for a whole lot of people. For everyone to fix the karma in this case we would all go on to make better decisions in our future lives. I used to look at this picture and cringe but then I think that she was completely broke at the time and apparently envied my life to the extent that she wanted it for herself. I guess I should be flattered? I just think no one knew what was going on because we were all in our 20s and living in a city where people sell their souls for fame and fortune. What can you expect?

I have noticed that a lot of people do seemingly horrible things yet seem to have all the luck. You have to look at this from a balance perspective. Many people who have established great wealth and power do everything on a grander scale. They have to defeat enemies and secure their fort all day everyday. It’s nonstop. These people also empoly a lot of people, pay taxes that benefit so many, contribute to charity, and often take care of their entire extended families. That is a LOT of good karma. So we have to look at everything from a standpoint of balance. If you have some bad karma built up, make a pact with the universe. If you broke someone’s heart say to the universe, “I am so sorry Universe. I feel deep regret for breaking someone’s heart so I intend to be careful with hearts in the future to restore love to this world. I will not use people and I will do my best to make sure that my actions benefit my own life but also benefit the lives of everyone around me. I will try to get beyond simple desires of the flesh to discover the vast pain that resides within individual souls and do my best to heal what is broken to make the karmic path simpler for everyone on their way back to the unified soul. This will help me when I too return.”

Add some love stories to your akashic library! Maybe throw out some tragedies that you haven’t finished yet.

Blockages and Fear

Do you ever feel like somebody’s out to get you? I just watched this video below and I think that it says so much in the way of manifesting things into our lives.

We are very powerful when we’re in a positive mindset, but sometimes we get thrown off of the rails. People are jealous and they throw salt in your game nonstop. If you get enough of it in a short enough time span you might start to believe it and then you are a self-destructing isotope. This means that the haters have succeeded. Last night I listened to this spirit cleanse as I was going to sleep. I had it at a super low volume because the frequency is almost jarring. I woke up when it ended from a sleep/trance and felt like part of me had died. It was the feeling that I have after a hard-core cleanse where I’m exhausted. I was actually hungry and got up to eat. I haven’t been hungry much lately because I’ve just been wired by this self-hatred issue. I’d been deteriorating and self-destructing under the mentality that, “I really must suck. Everyone hates me.” Well, f them. I don’t need them and don’t want them. People are nothing but rubbish and I’m on a people cleanse too. Here is the angel frequency cleanse track IF you want it.

It’s worth a shot. Be careful of the trance tracks you listen too though. I tried this one myself. You never know who puts YouTube stuff out. I just had a feeling about this one and know now how I felt afterward. When in doubt, if you need a little soul cleanse listen to some Michael Jackson. I recommend Billie Jean. It’s the perfect frequency to realign you.

Music cleanse – Billie Jean by Michael Jackson is the perfect frequency to get you moving and the perfect frequency for movement. It’s soul food. 432 hz