Holy Grail

My six-month guide to turning back the clock 10 years is published!

You Don’t Need a Facelift beauty secrets from Bethany Ryan to turn back the clock 10 years. Includes a six-month weekly schedule that will have you aging in reverse. Available now on Amazon!

This is my holy grail, fountain of youth secret to stopping the clock. I break down week-by-week what you can do to age in reverse without going under the knife.

I also explain exactly what happens when people do get a facelift and how to undergo this procedure intelligently if you have reached a point of aging where you are looking for radical transformation. No matter your level of aging this guide will stop the clock wherever you’re at and turn back the hands of time 10 years!

I have followed this routine myself many times. There were times in my life where I was partying a lot in the midst of traveling and gaining and losing weight. All of these things take a toll, as does stopping my regular self-care practices that are detailed in this guide. At those times, father time started to catch up with me and I had to put into practice once more my tried-and-true anti-aging secrets. 

Each time that I have noticed aging setting in I think that it’s too late and that I’ll never be able to get things under control again, and each time I prove myself wrong!

Me pulling myself together in the midst of the 6-month treatment plan!

This guide really works! It is my second book and is available now on Amazon for purchase in Kindle format or as an 8 ½ x 11 color guide complete with medical illustrations and a six-month schedule. My next book is a 2020 beauty and style guide which will be coming out in the next week or so. I will do a post when that one is out. Thank you so much for your loyalty in enjoying this page! Hope you love the guide.

Yours truly,

Bethany Ryan

Harmony and Balance: The Aesthetic Appeal of Challenge

Beauty is pain. We’ve all heard this. And life is pain. The reason behind both is a simple philosophic calculation:

If Beauty = Pain

And Life = Pain

Then Beauty = Life

The pain behind beauty is learning discipline. When we are off balance you can see it. It reveals itself in the quality of our hair, in our body latching onto water and fat, and in the actual physical proportional manifestation of our features. When an individual is said to be crooked, they are off balance. Characters with noses that jut off to one side may play the villain in movies. Conversely it’s difficult for us to find evil in someone aesthetically lovely. If a person has kind eyes but they’re a little wily, we somehow forgive them much easier than someone who on the outside appears as if he or she has no self respect.

I notice that the more difficult my life becomes, and the more that I feel challenged on a minute-to-minute basis, the more my features coordinate into symmetry. I noticed this first when I did the lemon cleanse for three days in 2013. My face had become puffy and detoxing was an emotional roller coaster. There was also physical hunger. At the end of the fast I ate this organic farmer’s market salad and felt as if it were sacrilegious. It was so delicious! The pictures from this time, when I put myself together and got out there, were beautiful! We appreciate beauty in things that we work hard for.

Putting in effort despite any immediate payoff is also respected by others. When you put in hard work toward building your physique, home, or family there is a gigantic payoff when beauty emerges from it. Any creation of beauty through struggle results in an immense beauty that we could not have created without the struggle. That tension goes into the work, if it’s art. Tension in our faces or muscles keeps the skin taut. Less consumption makes you light. Discipline makes everything easier…by making it harder. There is a respect that comes from others when they see that what beauty you have in your life was CREATED by YOU!

We need to understand that we are here to learn. When your soul was a part of the unified spirit, you knew everything! You had no wants, no desires. Your job here is to have a human experience. You need to find out what your purpose is because nothing will fulfill you until that time in which it dawns on you what you are here to CREATE. Most of us find this calling and then it cannot be ignored or denied. No matter how much we try to do something else, once you ignite your soul purpose (north node will give insight to this) it becomes this monster of its own.

For me, my soul purpose involves creating. It involves art and it involves astrology. Through times when I had the least guidance I had to look within. Everything outside felt wrong. I knew that I didn’t belong fitting into a mold that caused disharmony in my soul. That’s when I took on a mission to find this tension in others. To make it feel at peace, even for a moment. No matter the discomfort involved, being inauthentic is no longer an option for me because it’s detrimental to people LIKE me! If I let myself bend toward a way of existence that does not fit my inherent gut vibe of balance, I will forever be medicated. I will forever be false.

Before I understood my sensitivity as a strength, I suffered in other people’s worlds. Now I know where my peace is. I know where I’m centered. And now I know what to play with when I need some adjusting. That’s the amazing thing about astrology. It’s a chart from the heavens that explains EXACTLY the energies going on at the moment so you can identify difficult aspects and instead of triggering those, strengthen the BENEFICIAL aspects!

Negative aspects in astrology are simply warnings. It’s like a warning from your body. If your upper back is hurting from tension, you likely need to strengthen your lower back and core. You need to support areas of tension by strengthening the integral whole. If I am prone to having a messy home, I ABSOLUTELY MUST have a clean home for my life to be structured. Look at wherever you struggle. Look at what you don’t want to do on a daily basis. This is what you NEED to do to be ready for the inevitable changes in the weather. In the back scenario, it could be that an injury is in your 6th house potential. When igniting your inner warrior, however, and hopping on a fitness plan that balances out your entire life you may hop tracks and end up on a harmonious path of health. Maybe the maladies that could have come to you will instead be maladies that you help others overcome.

Instead of dealing with daily anxiety in not knowing what your path will be, you can take action and became stronger. You create a routine. You meet people along the way. You may look amazing in a way that you never had before from all of the discipline. Gaining the respect of others leads to new opportunities. It opens doors. You will always find doors open when you choose the more difficult path. The easy path, the one where you get something for free, results in a bunch of hiccups that you didn’t expect. You have to take control of your destiny or it will take control of you. That doesn’t sound very fun!

Identify right now physical ailments. That’s your first big task because those ailments have gotten so out of hand that they’re showing up causing physical pain. Deal with these. Take a sick day if you need to. Do nothing and find deep within you what feels wrong. How is this exposing itself in disharmony in your body? Upper back pain could be from sitting all day in a chair in front of a light box. Overstimulated in certain ways but under-stimulated in others.

The lifestyle that we’re living is not conducive to inner and outer health. Everyone is medicated. If you’re not, you’re actually the exception. It was mind boggling when I learned this. If you get to know enough people pretty well, they’ll let you know that you’re not alone. We hide so much from each other and this prevents us from growing as a community. Companies that embrace wellness and incorporate a fun atmosphere, positive reinforcement, and opportunities for health and leisure are rewarded with a creative, motivated staff that works as a team.

Sometimes making a change is not an option, or doesn’t appear to be. A lot of times we get wound up into a tight spot that gives us no way out. Say you’re working 9-5 with a job that you need to support your family and keep your home. That’s a pretty common scenario. Then all of a sudden there’s a break. If you don’t take it the universe has a way of showing you that SOMETHING’s got to give! I used to sell gym memberships at an elite gym in West Hollywood. One of our selling points was to explain to people who object with, “I need to worry about my family first,” that they cannot support their family if they themselves are not whole. If your ship is sinking you have no way of pulling up others in the same scenario. When you take time for peace and make yourself look and feel great you’ll reward those around you by not meddling too much, and also by really listening to what they need. They will take cues from you and become whole themselves. It’s all about energy. Really learning to diffuse and re-direct energy.

In work scenarios, I notice that people get disharmoniously involved in the work atmosphere. If you’re at work and everyone’s going out as a group but you don’t enjoy being around them, politely excuse yourself. There’s only so much work you can deal with. Plus it’s best that your colleagues don’t know the inner workings of your soul and life anyway. Think of them as competitors. You didn’t see Conor McGregor hanging out bro-style with Floyd Mayweather before their fight. Work is all about competition. Anything you say can and will be used against you. Keep your game face on at work. Use your breaks to re-center. After work is all about YOU time. If you have to go home to an annoying family, I definitely would join a gym. I love the solitude of getting on the elliptical and listening to gangster rap about shooting people. It makes me not fantasize about it in real life.

Okay that escalated quickly. Back to zen and tranquility…

I just honestly got off center thinking about office life and trying to find balance in that scenario. To cool off I went and made coffee. I’m looking out over the trees at my AirBnb here in Costa Rica while I hear Adele playing somewhere within the canopy. It’s beautiful! The beauty is what we need more of. Put an orchid or peace lily on your desk and maybe a little fountain with rocks underneath the desk. Get a gigantic rose quartz and leave it out in the sun to cleanse and charge all weekend when you’re off then have it radiate loving energy to your heart all week at work. Drink Synergy Kombucha. Watch a Russell Brand YouTube video on break. Self-publish something amazing you did today. Something that you’re truly proud of. These things always help me when I can’t control a tense external situation.

No matter how zen your life is there’s always going to be tension. We are here to learn. When we stop learning there is always misery or a catalyst that leads to more learning. This is why we should always understand ourselves and the energy around us. This truly gives us the advantage in gracefully hopping to an anticipated landing spot. Don’t expect to land for long though. You’re going to be moving along your whole entire life unless you’re supporting others who are moving. Depending on how big of a masochist you are, your difficulty level was decided before you embarked on this journey! Isn’t that amazing? YOU chose to experience a difficult existence or an easy one. It’s really no different than playing a video game. Do you want a game that you can beat and then move on to the next game? Do you want a game that you can never beat but just keep learning the deeper intricacies and hacks? Or do you want to play Tetris? All day…everyday. Dink…dink…pshew pshew pshew.

Some of us chose games that can’t be beaten in this lifetime. Games that we want to inspire for any subsequent incarnations, or until there is no more game. Is this all in my head? Did I make this whole thing up and if so, are the other players simply bots in my game? I hate it when my allegories become literal. If it’s my game, and I know the difficulty level, then I’m pretty sure I’m ready for another go at elimination and creation. I have only a backpack with me going into my next level. The elimination portion is leaving behind any tools that will not serve me in this next level and the creation is of course about creating enough beauty around me to make the heightened skill level as enjoyable as possible while dealing with challenges I’ve never seen before. Like attracts like. If you want to see beauty you have to make yourself beautiful. If you want to make money you have to spend money. It’s not fair! I know…but I didn’t choose Tetris either.

April 22, 2019 Horoscope – Taurus season starts

5:46pm CST April 22, 2019

Thought I’d do a little reading for tonight since it just started pouring rain out of the blue. Here is the chart for the moment. The moon is in Sagittarius now next to retrograde Jupiter. It’s a time for retrospection after the intense full moon energy. Hopefully everyone is catching up on sleep and feeling good. We are transitioning into Taurus right now and are at the early degrees. There has been a lot of energy like this lately with Uranus transitioning back and forth between Aries and Taurus. Uranus is the planet of unexpected events and also of technology. The ways we use technology might be changing a lot for us all right now. Less about selfies and people trying to be Instafamous and more about using the internet as a tool to create a better life. Aries season is a time of selfish wants. It’s when we define what we want and are going to do for the coming year. If this requires any battles, we fight them. Going into Taurus is more about the senses. It’s about comfort and nourishing ourselves. It’s about nourishing the sentiments that started us off into the astrological year during Aries time (late March to early April). Right now Chiron is in Aries. Chiron is the wounded healer. There may be flair ups right now, and there may have been in the last month or so, regarding wounds that you endured that were not dealt with. You may have found yourself seeking out revenge or flying off the handle, even if this isn’t your true nature or usual way of course. Aries ruling planet, Mars, is in Gemini (the planet of communication ruled by Mercury). I was reading about alchemy last night and learned that alchemical reactions were thought to involve Mercury uniting salt with sulfur in all incarnations. Mercury was the spirit. Not necessarily Mercury as is used in thermometers but an ethereal substance. Mercury is the tie that binds. In Mythology, Mercury is both male and female. It is the tie that binds masculine with feminine to create. So when Mars is in Gemini I think of warring communication. Violent polarity with the masculine trying to overtake the feminine. I think that the proximity of Venus conjunct Chiron (wounded healer) right now shows that those who have been wounded are finding their footing going into Taurus season. The male energy of the sun is now residing in a feminine part of the heavens (Taurus) and she’s crying.

When you have no choice but to grow: How to awaken the dragon

Sometimes things get so bad that you have no choice but to grow. Being backed against a wall always finds me options. There have been times when I thought that my only options were dead or jail. Many times. Words kill. Be impeccable with your words. Here I was starving. All of my options had been taken away…or attempted to be. I wasn’t allowed to have money and was stashed in Malibu. Sounds fantastic but there wasn’t food in the house. I was literally starving here. Don’t do this to someone’s child. So many times I have been tortured for NO REASON. I look back at the pictures where I looked the best. They were my most miserable times. I don’t think that I look good here, I look anorexic. The only thing that I can say for anorexia is that you have a completely clear head. In that case, what you need will easily come. You will see your path. Make a wish, say it out loud, and just say ABRACADABRA. If your wish is in line with the universe, it will be granted.

Remember what you must do when they undervalue you, when they think your softness is your weakness, when they treat your kindness like it’s their advantage. You awaken every dragon, every wolf, every monster that sleeps inside you and you remind them what hell looks like when it wears the skin of a gentle human.

The Potato Diet: 3-day food prep plan for digestive issues

Resistant starch diet plan created by Bethany Ryan

I’ve tried many diets, both vegan and diets including meat. I did a lot of low-carb diets that left me craving more. I have experimented with vegan options that would not cause digestive issues. It was hard for me to find anything to eat when I couldn’t tolerate gluten. In both of these cases I have discovered that resistant starches offer an answer. They are satisfying. Anyone who has had trouble with digestion or bloating in the past knows that comfort foods are what you want to eat. Potatoes are a comfort food and with my preparation methods you can enjoy them without the traditional side-effects. This easy, 3-day meal prep plan can help you even out your system while enjoying some really satisfying traditional meals that many of us have avoided for years! Hope this helps.

Grocery List:

  • 3 – 5 lb bags of potatoes
  • 1 – 2 lb bag of lemons
  • 2 – Cans/jars sauerkraut
  • 2 – Jars pickled beets
  • Large bottle Bragg Organic Raw Apple Cider Vinegar with The Mother
  • Mayo, Vegenaise, or Miracle Whip
  • Vegan or regular sour cream (option for baked potatoes)
  • Earth Balance or non-vegan butter
  • Flavoring such as Himalayan Salt, Pepper, Cayenne Pepper, Turmeric, Garlic, Onion etc
  • Chives (option)
  • Parsley (option)
  • Garlic, fresh or minced (option for mash)
  • Soy, coconut, almond or regular milk (or other for mashed potatoes)
  • 3 – Large Grapefruits
  • Diet Ginger Beer (option for snacks)
  • Raw, unflavored almonds or walnuts
  • Meal prep containers (2 compartment + separate small side dish)
  • 3 – Gt’s Synergy Organic Kombucha “Trilogy” (option for lunches)
  • 3 gallons of store brand Alkaline Water or Distilled Water

Meal Prep Instructions:

Fill two large pots with water and a heaping pinch of Himalayan Sea Salt in each. Be sure that you don’t overfill the pots with water. I do this frequently. Leave enough room to add the potatoes without spillover. When the water boils add as many potatoes from the 3 bags as you can, dividing them up between the two pots. You can use the rest for snacks and boil them later.

Boil potatoes so they are rare to medium rare. Don’t overcook them. You want them slightly firm. The key to this diet is to LET THE POTATOES COOL completely before eating them. After boiling strain out the water and put 5-7 potatoes to the side to make mashed potatoes. Throw the rest in a large glass bowl and pop it in the refrigerator.

If you have any potatoes left you can boil these now. After cooking, keep 3 whole cooked potatoes in a bowl in the refrigerator to make baked potatoes for dinners. The rest (if there are any) will just be extras that you can keep in the fridge to snack on between meals.

You will slice the snack potatoes up and eat them cold with lemon, apple cider vinegar and sauerkraut on the side (after initial cooling). You can also eat them plain or with hot sauce.

Mashed Potatoes (hot)

While still hot mash up the 5-7 warm potatoes that you set aside with a fork, mixer, masher, or other. Add in your butter, milk, parsley, salt, pepper, cayenne, turmeric etc. There are many vegan mashed potato recipes online if you need inspiration.

They key is to allow the potatoes to cool once. This alters the structure of the starch molecule and makes it indigestible. It then moves through your small intestines to your large intestines in tact. Once it reaches the colon the body ferments the the potatoes. This creates butyrate and is what is going to heal your digestive tract.

Fermented foods are natural probiotics. That’s why we’re adding beets and sauerkraut for added flavor to dishes.

Lemon and vinegar are used because they are acidic and help to heal a stomach that may have trouble in the initial stages of digestion. Food then moves into the small intestines where it becomes alkaline. I think that antacids are counter-intuitive to the true mechanism behind the digestive system and actually lead to many more issues in the future.

Turmeric is an anti-inflammatory that works synergistically with black pepper. I recommend putting it in the potato salad to give it a little color.

Dish the mashed potatoes into individual fridge-safe (and microwave safe) covered containers and put them into the refrigerator to cool.

Potato Wedges (cold)

Take out half of the potatoes left that had been cooling. Slice the potatoes up as potato wedges, cubes, fries or however you like them.

When you slice them cool they stay in tact better.

Drizzle apple cider vinegar over the sliced potatoes. Squeeze a whole lemon over the top. Add some salt, pepper and cayenne pepper for flavor.

Option: Slice up some pickled beets and throw them on top. They will turn your potatoes red but enhance the flavor. They will also aid your liver enzymes in breaking down fats that you’re adding in preparation.

Put aside. You will be combining these potato wedges with the potato salad (below) in the food prep containers. You will then put these into the refrigerator for your meals.

Potato Salad (cold)

Chop the remaining cooled potatoes up into cubes. You can remove the peel if you want or leave it. Add Mayo, Vegenaise or Miracle Whip. There are all sorts of flavors now if you’re vegan. Jazz the potato salad up however you like.

Add some chives, salt, pepper, turmeric, mustard, cayenne, or whatever else you like on your potato salad.

ToGo Meal Prep for Lunch:

Put your two cold potato salads next to each other into medium containers that have lids. They can be divided if you prefer. Put the mashed potatoes into their own small containers so you can heat those up separately from the cold potato salads. Put the lids on and put the prepped potatoes into the refrigerator.

I recommend trying this diet for 3 days to reset your digestive tract. You can have the extra potatoes plain as snacks between meals. Eat them cold and as many as you want. You can also make them into other creations, such as baked potatoes for dinner.

Option: Put a Synergy Kombucha in with your lunch each day and some extra plain potatoes for snacks. Bring a lemon with you to squeeze onto the plain potatoes. You can keep them at your desk throughout the day.

Idea: Have hot water or tea, plain or with lemon, at work. This is AMAZING for getting your lymph system moving. The largest collection of lymph vessels is in the gut area so generally this EXTREMELY important system is affected by any digestive issues. It may even be responsible.

Sipping some hot water throughout the day sends a surge each time through your lymph system. This is what eliminates edema. So if your digestive issues have caused you to bloat, I would definitely recommend drinking warm water (from the red spout on the water or coffee machines) throughout the day.


You can have hot water with lemon, tea, black coffee, and grapefruit for breakfast. Do not eat grapefruit if you are taking any medications! Find out first if it’s contraindicated.

Idea: Boil a small pot of water with a whole lemon sliced in half in the water. Drink the hot lemon water.

This was recommended to me at one of those expensive weight loss centers. Doing this first thing in the morning is really great for losing weight!


Grapefruit, sauerkraut, raw unflavored almonds and walnuts, Diet Ginger Beer, and cold potatoes with lemon and apple cider vinegar.


Re-heated baked potato with butter, sour cream, salt, pepper, etc and:

  • Steak or seared tofu
  • Greens salad with garbanzo beans, cucumber, lemon and apple cider vinegar
  • Diet Ginger Beer or water

Before Bed:

Small glass of hot lemon water or caffeine-free ginger tea

More on Potato Diet Weight Loss:

The Joe Rogan Experience with Chris Kresser

Thomas DeLauer, Celebrity Diet Coach

Update: I stayed in an AirBnB in the middle of nowhere for a week and ate nothing but potatoes. I slept very well and my digestive issues went away. This gallery shows potatoes many ways. I enjoyed them most with lemon or lime, salt, pepper, and cayenne pepper.

Astrological Science: Explaining the quintessential planes concerning Babylonian, Classical, Biblical and Scientific observations.

It is possible that the spiritual plane and the physical plane could coexist in the exact same space. The same as a democrat’s world sits on top of a republican’s world yet they look completely different. They are perceptual realities. In my study of astrology, which started from astronomy and cartography as I’m learning reading Ptolemy’s Tetrabiblos, I notice that there are multiple planes. This would be 4D and 5D realities (and more). Where 4D and 5D are imperceivable dimensions to us, they explain animal aptitude for things like perceptually knowing when we will be arriving home with bizarre accuracy. Animals are able to communicate without speech. This extrasensory perception is something that humans are able to acquire and what the Age of Aquarius was/is all about.

The 4D and 5D worlds intersect and are layered. They surround systems. Like a halo is represented around the head of Christ or an aura surrounds the body of a person in Eastern Religions, spheres surround our planet and radiate out. These dimensions include light and sound. This is why we see plastic surgery using lasers (focused wavelengths of light), ultrasound (inaudible sound frequencies), and radio frequency (electromagnetic rays). These technologies operate on those planes that we somehow forget, or fail to consider in scientific study. People who study ancient philosophy (present day) can miss the boat in neglecting the scientific 3D plane of existence, even though it should be the inspiration for their continued study. It’s difficult for someone to comprehend both the scientific model of the universe, the empirical models of the world, and the also incorporate theology because they all traditionally debunk each other. Any scientist who is familiar with light assistance in a targeted way or the use of sound to bypass specific physical planes, would 100% understand a plane of existence where “the firmament” is real. It’s just the fixed stars in astronomy. These tend to be really far away and difficult to perceive. Ptolemy was discovering and writing at the time the bible was created and had an understanding of changeable aspects of the heavens and those systems which do not move. His systems are explained in the literature produced by all major religions. Interestingly, you would think that you would base a solar system on those items which in essence are controls as they are unchangeable. Not on anything that spins on an axis or rotates around other things. That reminds me of the chaos of quantum physics.

Spirituality is the scientific method in action. What is perceived through time allows us to predict future occurrences and is no more mystical than a Farmer’s Almanac. The same way a Farmer’s Almanac uses the sun to predict what happens with each season, and a naval captain knows not to sail at a full moon, an astrologer uses planets, stars, and star systems to predict related experiences (depending on the historical nature of the celestial entity). Think about the experiment in the 1950s where a “normal” housewife was subjected to a bunch of tests to confirm her emotional and mental stability, then asked to drop acid while being videotaped. Listen to what she describes (video below). She’s simply perceiving a dimension that we don’t normally have access to. The scientific method is about proving hypotheses through tests and coming up with theories based on empirical evidence. That’s exactly what astrology does. Whether every astrologer is a competent scientist is another matter.

The reason for this blog is that I see people interested in ancient astrological models stumble over scientific evidence to the contrary. What they fail to understand is that it’s possible that evidence gathered since the beginning of written time may have an impact on our current social systems. Neglecting this knowledge because of a lack of communication would be a shame! It’s fascinating. The library at Alexandria had to have been fantastic. Not everything has to have this rivalrous duality.

Horoscope for April 2019 – The Pink Full Moon in Scorpio

Note: The official almanacs are considering this full moon at 29 degrees of Libra, a critical degree point. Based on my location, in Iowa, I originally pulled the reading for the full moon day as the evening, when we will be viewing it in the sky. The moon will cross over into 0 degrees Scorpio mid-day on Thursday April 19. My reading is taking into account the planetary energy that will bring us into the weekend.

Click for full April Moon Phase Calendar on Astro-Seek.com

The April 2019 Pink Full Moon in Scorpio is going to be all about feminine energy and the ending of outdated ways of doing things. This relates to politics, as well as our dynamic personal relationships including society and work.

The Pink Full Moon in Scorpio April 19, 2019 vibe will be felt April 14-24.

Watery energy starts out April

The first few days of April my 12th house has felt extremely activated. I’ve been having heavy nightmares and feel this dark presence all around me (so 12th house).

Personal note: We just got this cat. He was hanging around in a mechanic’s shop in Cedar Rapids. I’ve studied a lot about pets coming into your life. Cats are portals. The 12th house is a portal. It could be that the cat is igniting these dreams or it could have to do with unendurable personal situations.

Dark, unforeseen forces were at play when Uranus was at 0 degrees Taurus (starting March 6/7). It just moved back into Taurus after being there from May-November 2018. A particularly hard time for me. Then the retrograde back into Aries killed pretty much every shred left of a normal life that I had. Uranus controls unforeseen events and technology. A planet’s aspects are greatest at 0 degrees. You would think that it would be higher degrees but actually the transition between signs can also be a portal. Especially for slow moving planets like those that are the farthest away from the sun. Unforeseen events in the home sector, such as those close to me dying, seem to be related to Uranus at its current state. I’m trying to figure out why. Here’s a chart that I pulled for right now:

April 2019 Horoscope Placements
April 3, 2019: There’s a lot of water going on this month. I figure that I’m going to have to rise like the phoenix to get out of this current state of affairs or end up drowning

I see that Mars is at 1 degree of Gemini. This in itself is problematic for me because Gemini is the opposite of my strong Scorpio/Sag chart. Neither are represented well. Mars ruler, Aries, is also at low degrees, 2, of chiron and magic 13 of the Sun. Mars being activated stirs up tension. As Mars is in the 12th house for me, my current experience is one of stirring up past feelings of turmoil relating to other people, especially in my youth (see earlier blog from today). All of my old disturbances are coming back in an obsessive fashion. I’m having the same nightmares that I had in 4th grade. I’ve been dreading going to sleep.

If you look at the heavy water aspect in this chart, you’ll see that the fast moving, close-by Moon, Mercury, and Venus are all in Pisces. Neptune, Pisces’ shady ruling planet, is also in Pisces. So we have a lot of Pisces going on. My biggest problems have generally been with Pisces and Gemini women, as far as haters go. Pisces and Gemini men seem deceitful opportunists. And they’re usually old…awkwardly. All of the Pisces I have known have been older than me, and the Geminis too. That’s a personal experience. Pisces are old souls too. Geminis are the big talkers. Just honestly can’t stand either sign.

There’s water everywhere and bullshit in the air.

I’m having a lot of trouble dealing with liars, who I know are lying, and constantly lie, yet still are disrespectful enough to continue lying knowing that I know that they lie. Those would be the Geminis especially. Always with an angle. I’m finding it intolerable right now. Can we get some honest Sagittarius in the heavens? Nope, it’s about to go retrograde (aghhh!! More about Jupiter retrograde below btw). How about some scary Scorpio to come in and clean out all of the unnecessary? Just wait for this crazy Pink Full Moon on April 19th! We should start feeling those affects on the 14th and through the 24th.

A little more about the weird energy starting out the month:

Saturn and Pluto are hanging out in Capricorn (the death sign…and death planets) not to scare anyone. Saturn rules Capricorn so generally Saturn has lasting affects if anything good comes out of what it touches…but right now I’m in this dark mindset and have been studying the charts heavily of ill-fated celebrities. Saturn and Pluto placements can be great significators of shady dealings. Depending on how they are placed in the natal chart of course. I was reading, however, that natal charts actually have potential for 4-8 death scenarios for each person. Sorry to scare anyone. This is where I’m at right now so if you don’t want to know when you’re going to die…stop reading. Anyway our natal charts are based on destiny whereas out actual lives are based on free will. The choices that we make do have an effect on what the stars predicted on the day that we were born.

Side note on shady planetary aspects: What I’ve noticed is that it’s not good to have these slow movers and malefics largely in reverse in your natal chart. You could also use to avoid slow movers and malefics (or poorly positioned planets) in low degrees (such as 0 degrees especially, or 1-5ish). When the rest of the zodiac then hits a low degree or goes reverse your whole world can go haywire. I’m just thinking of the darkness and pain and looking for a way out.

April 19, 19 the moon will move into Scorpio. This has an opposition with Mercury (Aries), Chiron (Aries) and Uranus (Taurus) at low degrees, and the Sun at a high degree (Aries). Capricorn will still hold heavy Saturn and Pluto opposite the North Node in Cancer. Jupiter, my only saving grace (gifts and good luck in its home sign), will still be in Sagittarius but IN RETROGRADE. This chart is feeling deadly to me, not gonna lie. So Jupitor retrograde will be opposing the North Node in Cancer. There are also all kinds of connections going on across the board between all of these new aspects and Venus and Neptune still in Pisces and Mars still in Gemini. It looks like an Anarchy symbol and that’s about what I expected, with the moon at the head, until I looked at the actual Full Moon Chart closer.

April 19 will be the Pink Full Moon.

Sounds pretty. This is going to heighten the affects of all of the aspects being made so it depends on what’s in your natal chart as worlds collide on this insane day. If it were a person, and I were reading her birth chart, here is what I would predict about April 19, 2019 moving backward through the houses. These are general readings. We all have aspects of each sign and planet in our charts. Pay attention to your Sun, Moon, Venus and Ascendant especially. You will be more affected by activity in these signs.

Pink Full Moon in Scorpio – April 2019 aspects

Pisces Horoscope April 2019

12th house in ruling Pisces: Neptune right before Venus at high degree of Pisces. Hidden affairs or love and lavish lifestyles being revealed to be built on false ideals. Harmony of Neptune in its own sign, also ruler of 12th house. This says to me that there may be some sort of comfort in either keeping things hidden or synthesizing anything that comes to light…in the dark. Since 12th house rules night time and the dream world you could have epiphanies through your dreams. Pay attention to these.

Neptune moved into home sign Pisces in 2011 and will stay there until 2025. Neptune transits for 165 years before returning to a sign. We will not see Neptune in Pisces again in our lifetime. An interesting time in history of note was when Neptune was in Pisces in 1522 for 13 years. At that time King Henry VIII single handedly changed marital laws to suit his own desires for succession. In a quest for a male heir he dissolved his marriage to Catherine of Aragon and married Anne Boleyn, who he’d been lusting after. I think that it’s fascinating to consider the love children of King Henry VIII and the Neptune in Pisces stay of the 1500s: Mary Tudor (by 1st wife Catherine of Aragon) and Queen Elisabeth I of England (by Anne Boleyn). Neptune is a beguiling feminine planet. Her true motivations may be hidden by carefully executed movements that bewilder all of the other signs. Pisces is this feminine opportunist. Pisces is the old soul. The last of the zodiac.

In 2011, when Neptune moved into Pisces, there were some pretty major domestic events in regard to political closure. The Iraq War ended and Osama Bin Laden was killed. War and terrorism are both very masculine and fiery. Also in 2011 the Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell policy was repealed by President Barack Obama. Neptune being home in Pisces is about bringing to light those things that maybe have been cloudy before. It’s about blurring lines. It’s also about masculine leaders pulling the wool over our eyes to push their own agendas. I’m not sure that the 2020 election will produce a female Presidential Candidate. I think that there is a strong possibility that Trump will be re-elected based on the history of slow moving planets being positioned similar to where they sit now. I think that there will then be a reactionary shift in the global political arena toward matriarchal rule between 2024 and 2026. Right now women are digging in their feet and rolling up their sleeves.

Another interesting note is that the Salem Witch Trials occurred during a Neptune in Pisces transit. This is why I find it interesting that Trump continually refers to the media’s “witch hunt.” There could be something to that. The media burning people at the stake is something that could ease up a bit. There is this list of America’s Most Wanted who get slaughtered over and over. Our biggest concern right now should be deciphering who truly has the freedom of our citizens in mind. Our social media platforms are pushing agendas and filtering our communication with one another. This is a very dangerous thing if you look at what happens in countries where there is no Freedom of the Press. If we begin to feel that our news media truly is biased and embellishing or omitting actual events we will be in a position where we receive no information about our status as a free nation.

Aquarius Horoscope April 2019

11th house in ruling Aquarius: Groups and communities will have an ear to the wind. Keep an eye on what is happening this month because it will foreshadow the near future in regard to groups and communities. Anything happening in the 10th house right now may have affects on Aquarius in the coming months. I notice that more people are working from home. Online communities are more airy with a vibe of the late 60s mentality. Veganism is big and may be helpful for Aquarians needing a detox. Binurial beats are becoming more popular for specific healing and meditation. The collective frequency is going up. Kundalini awakenings will become more common with likely misunderstanding. People are also breaking free of their cubicles and wanting a way of life that is good for the soul. This will conflict with older generations school of thought about grinding 9-5 and saving for retirement.

Aquarius ruler Uranus will be in Taurus for the next 7 years. The effects are being felt this month in full effect since Uranus is just transitioning from Aries to Taurus. Taurus is more feminine and less war like. An example of the new energy is Alexandria Ocasio-Cortez taking the House of Representatives by storm. Her public persona shows what this Pink Full Moon chart represents.

The old-school male ideas of tenure are being seen under a new light which makes them seem ridiculous. An outwardly attractive woman is speaking in a more poised and educated manner than her seniors (literally). What she says makes sense. She’s engaged in expressing her views toward a green future. I think that this full moon may be a great time for the right to put together some more progressive ways of discussing the Green New Deal instead of just saying that you can’t throw all of the cars away. Elaborate on it. The original New Deal was in 1933 after the Great Depression. This was the last time that Uranus was in Taurus. What happened next was World War II and the rise of fascism. I think that any politicians who come forth with a less rigid or black and white idea in the political sphere for technology and progress will be well received. Because Uranus brings unexpected events it could be a roller coaster of great things and terrible things flying at us in the next 7 years. We need to be flexible and find politicians who are able to adapt to changes on a domestic, as well as a global sphere.

(See the Taurus reading for more on Uranus. This will be significant for Aquarians since it is your ruling planet!)

Capricorn Horoscope April 2019

10th house in ruling Capricorn: Career and karma at home in Capricorn with ruler Saturn there conjunct Pluto. Heavy things regarding career, also aspecting North node (your greater calling in life). This makes me think that some will discover that their calling is the more difficult path of choice. Perhaps a creative calling or anything regarding emotions as the North Node is opposing in Cancer. Cancer is the moon’s home. It’s related to the mother as well. With the full moon there is a lot of female energy going on with the career sector. This could signal to me a decision to spend more time home or with the family instead of at work. This could lead to a greater sense of fulfillment and possibly even keep the pay rate steady. Life is about balance. I just think about the commute time and cost alone. Plus the getting ready time, work clothes, angst of office life, lunches at Bossa Nova, all this stuff is expensive. Even a little pay cut could be penny foolish yet pound wise. What happens in the 10th house is seen in the 11th house later. Right now the 11th house is hanging out with Aquarian energy and not much going on. These tough choices in the career sector that you are making now will pay off huge in the future. Your decisions and gains will be long lasting and fruitful in your relationships and general acceptance by others. With Pluto here as well I think that tensions that you’ve been bombarded with as the elephant in the room lately will finally become decisions. Something needs to end for you to have a new start. Don’t overthink this! If there’s nothing that comes to mind related to career or prestige then the 10th house may not be activated for you right now.

The Plutonian energy for Capricorn started in 2008. When Pluto arrives in a zodiac sign it stays much longer than planets closer to the sun. Pluto is dark and mysterious. Pluto is the ruler of the underworld. It’s possible that something changed about your life in a major way in 2008. Since Pluto is Scorpio’s ruler, the pink full moon on the 19th may highlight for you what exactly Pluto is up to regarding your life journey. The last time that Pluto was in Capricorn was in 1776. That’s when the United States became a country. Our political decisions in 2020 are going to either solidify the United States as having stood the test of time or push us into a more modern version. Whoever takes office in 2020 will implement policy between 2020 and 2024 that will make or break the United States as a world power.

Sagittarius Horoscope April 2019

9th house in ruling Sag: Jupiter reverse in Sagittarius. Reversals heighten the energy of a planet while also causing confusion at times. Luckily Sag rules the 9th house. There is some harmony with that. There may be some dogmas that come into play regarding philosophy. Perhaps your political views are changing. In a public sphere we may be noticing a new spice to political affairs. This is also related to worldly affairs and travel. Jupiter is the giver of gifts and good luck in reverse in its ruling sign of Sagittarius. Sagittarius is all about freedom. So maybe your luck is rooted in the home. This is harmoniously opposing the North Node in Cancer. Think about sticking close to home right now. The retrograde goes through August. I would not venture too far out from your norm right now. Enjoy the fruits of your past labor but don’t expect anything fabulous to fall at your feet right now with the retrograde. Maybe spend the summer learning. Study philosophy, religion and other cultures. Learn about the East. I’m learning a lot about Vedic Astrology readings right now and Tarot. I’m not hopping a flight to India right now though. Even though it would be cool to learn from the source, we’re in a global economy and with technology the way it is we have access to more information than ever, in the safety of our own homes.

Scorpio Horoscope April 2019

8th house in ruling Scorpio: Pink Full Moon in Scorpio, 8th house ruling planet. The 8th house is sudden death and endings. 5 days before and 5 days after the full moon there is going to be the most light shed on this house. Full moons bring the tides up. If you think about our bodies, we are 80% water. When a full moon occurs it literally raises the tide within us, heightening our disposition, good or bad. Our emotions and intuition are heightened. Our temperaments enhanced. This is a highly wet and feminine full moon. I can see figurative death in social mores (as I discuss more below). The old views of women are dying. I can also see actual physical death happening. High water level and spill-off. Drowning emotionally or actually. Scorpio drains the swamp. All the water comes out and the garbage at the bottom is revealed. This is cleaned out and the water returns fresh with new life. Maybe dry up some of these fishes that got out of control with rampant Pisces in April. All of the nonsense and heavy, intense vibes, all of the shady dealings brought to light, will spill over at this full moon. Goodbye to anything unnecessary!

Libra Horoscope April 2019

7th house ruling Libra: Married life and long-term partnerships are balanced. People are finding what truly contributes to a healthy long-term partnership and are choosing this over old destructive patterns. Harmony between the masculine and feminine. Past separations may come to a settlement now. Both parties will be able to agree and move on their new paths.

Libra’s ruler, Venus, is hanging out in the 12th house (Pisces) right now. Pisces ruling planet is Neptune, which also is in Pisces. The symbiosis of Venus and Neptune energies mean to me that Libra will be experiencing the makings of a long-term relationship, possibly with a sensitive partner. Whoever you are dealing with right now is in it for the long haul, whether you like it or not. You may be torn concerning certain aspects of this person as the proverbial “total package.” Weigh things out since you are Libra, and Libra is all about balance. Do a cost-benefit analysis of the relationship. Write down the person’s best attributes and worst attributes. Compare these to your non-negotiables in relationships. What’s most important to you? Does your partner fit the bill? Can they be trained? These are important things to consider. Are you wasting time that you could happen upon your twin flame? The romance of a lifetime. I think that your age and level of experience can be big considerations. If you’re not looking to settle down and start a family, you may be most concerned with satisfying companionship. If you’re dealing with a place-filler person who doesn’t really inspire you then it may be time to move on. If you’re sick of the highs and lows of the 5th house dating sphere, however, this may be a gamble. Really think about your long-term partner option. When they go to sleep before you do you miss them? When they’re not with you do you miss them? If the answer is no MOVE ON. Sometimes we don’t realize that someone does mean a lot to us until it’s too late. Don’t take someone for granted if you may regret it. Imagine that they spontaneously break it off with you tomorrow. They say that they have had a total eclipse of the heart and cannot endure one more second as your doormat. Are you relieved in this scenario? Are you sad? Is it their neediness that annoys you? See what you can work on if your relationship has hit a plateau. It’s a jungle out there. Don’t take your life for granted!

Virgo Horoscope April 2019

6th house ruling Virgo: Virgo’s ruler, Mercury, is the planet of communication and is hanging out in the early degrees of Aries. On the night of the Pink Full Moon in Scorpio, Saturn will be at 20 degrees where it is debilitated and next to Pluto. The South Node is conjunct them as well. Since your ruling planet, Mercury, is in Aries right now, I would avoid activating Saturn in any way. Virgo is a very organized sign. Avoid working on Saturday as it activates Saturn. That will pull up any karma that you haven’t dealt with. With Pluto sitting there I would avoid bringing up karma right now. Both Saturn and Pluto are going retrograde right after the full moon (24th and 25th). Pluto rules Scorpio, so the full moon itself will likely activate this area of the chart.

Virgo rules the 6th house which is work, health and pets. Consistency and stability in your work life will be felt now if you have been organized. Pets will be a joy if they have had a consistent routine. A new pet could bring a new vibrancy to your home. Adopting a puppy or kitten could give your household a new energy that will make everyone happy. Happiness is health. If you have adopted a rescue you may feel a new sense of purpose right now. When we bond with the forgotten we are able to heal the parts of ourselves that have been forgotten. The solution to loneliness is bringing companionship to someone else. All of the good karma that you’ve built working with the rescue will be your reward right now. Things might all of a sudden stabilize.

The full moon is all about karma in the areas where Virgo excels. Virgos are always preoccupied with helping everyone else along. They are wonderful spouses and parents. They are great coworkers. Virgos pay their dues everyday and right now is a time for your bigger struggles to clear. I think that the Pluto and Saturn retrogrades will all of a sudden bring Virgo some recognition for all of the sweet things that they do.

Leo Horoscope April 2019

5th house ruling Leo: The lion is roaring in his favorite place! Romantic relationships (the short term ones…sorry) will be fiery. I always look where Leo’s ruler the Sun is hanging out to get an idea for what the greater themes are that Leo is experiencing. You will be feeling good and looking good. Right now there is harmony for those who embrace balance. The full moon is opposite of the sun, as all full moons are. This duality between masculine and feminine is enhanced by the Sun being in fiery, masculine Aries and the Moon being in watery, feminine Scorpio. Pay attention to where Leo falls in your chart (for example, Venus in Leo) or what planets fall in your 5th house (the house of popularity/ruled by Leo and harmoniously positioned in Leo at present). These may be activated meaning they will play a part in your dating life and social interactions. Keep in mind there is A LOT of water going on right now. Since Leo is a fire sign the dating life might drown out a little with the full moon polarity. There can be aggravation if you have been dealing with more watery, feminine signs. Sun in Aries activates Mars.

For cross-watchers: Look at male friendships or lovers (depending on your proclivity) that you have right now. You may notice more polarity in your viewpoints with men if you are a feminine or watery energy (Pisces, Cancer, Scorpio).

Hint for Leo: Balanced individuals will remain harmonious. Think of Kurt Cobain. He was Pisces. Pisces is really watery but he was born male. His look was balanced. He wasn’t androgynous but he had longer hair and a small build. He was soft spoken. He was philosophical and progressive. This is how you should behave right now to retain popularity. The Scorpio full moon would be a really bad time to rub any women the wrong way. The energy that comes back would be swift like the sting of a Scorpion. Unexpected and deadly.

Cancer Horoscope April 2019

4th house ruling Cancer: The North Node is here right now and Cancer’s ruling celestial body is a full moon in fellow water sign Scorpio. Emotions, intuition, and feminine energy are all being lit up by the moon in a positive way. Cancer’s gift this month is shedding light on the truth. There are likely to be some brass communicators around you who will benefit from your assistance in helping them to see other viewpoints or by your simply being patient with them. With the polarity between masculine and feminine energies right now there can be a clash of the titans should you put on your monster face. You will win the battle but it could cost you the war in the future. When in doubt, silence is golden right now. Others will be able to decipher things about others that may have been hidden before.

Gemini Horoscope April 2019

3rd house in ruling Gemini: Gemini, the grand communicator is harmonious in 3rd house with potential difficulty from stage stealing Mars. Two words – Donald Trump. Donald Trump is an example of a grand communicator who likes the spotlight. Faint aspect here to Neptune in 12th house Pisces and back to North Node in Cancer. Mars is an outlier this month otherwise while a lot of other stuff is going on, Mars is hanging out in Gemini speaking one way while potentially hiding true motivations beneath the fiery exterior. Gemini is a mutable sign and can roll with any punches so keep an eye out for those who are very forceful and vocal this month. These people might actually be sheep in wolves clothing and have more beneficial goals in mind. They could also just be wolves, as Gemini tends to be liberal in slamming everyone. They spread rumors and make up lies. With Mars there I think of a war of words. Sometimes it’s good to go in like the lion and possibly out like a lamb. This is a way to earn respect without being a pushover. Playing to all sides you hear what’s going on with everyone and you can spin it however you want later. Be nice! Stay under the radar right now if you have strong views regarding sexuality or masculine vs feminine roles. If you are extremely masculine and fiery you could learn A LOT by considering other viewpoints right now. These could prove to be your ace cards in hands that you’re dealt in the future. Being balanced and appealing to all people is a weapon. Warrior Mars and the flashy Sun will feel this right now. You could cause damage by showing off too much right now. Strengths that people may not have noticed before could be highlighted now. You don’t have to over-act.

The strong communicators this month are pushing agendas. With Uranus in Taurus we need to be sure that we don’t end up with another Adolf Hitler, Chairman Mao or Joseph Stalin. Otherwise keep an eye out for unexpected world domination in the next 7 years. Consider yourself warned.

Taurus Horoscope April 2019

2nd house in ruling Taurus: Uranus at 2 degrees in Taurus (ruler of 2nd house) aspecting the full moon. This is more indication that home is where the heart is. Taurus is about lavish life in the home sphere while Uranus is about technology. The second house is earned money. This complicated placement could mean unexpected things happen or that things regarding technology change somewhat. The last 7 years we’ve been dealing with Aries, the baby of the zodiac, having Uranus present. It was all about ME. Look at ME! We saw selfies proliferate, as well as Instagram. Front facing cameras are now the norm. What I noticed as Uranus started to transition out of Aries is that my personal safety felt compromised with geo maps of all of my online activity. I got rid of my cell phone and social media. I’m sure that I’ll dabble with them again but I’m using more concrete things like writing blogs and recording Podcasts. I want to make money. I want my online presence to exist, but I want it to work for ME. I don’t want to make these social media sites money with people looking through all of my private stuff. I want nicer stuff now. I want the 16 lens camera. I want better quality. People are going to be more sensual now with Uranus in Taurus when it comes to technology. People watch videos of other people eating food now. It’s voyeuristic. We are involved in each-others lives to the extent that Instagram Live has people commenting questions while you are posting your food videos. We have Gen Z coming into adulthood in the next 7 years with the Uranus in Taurus cycle. Gen Z are the ultimate multitaskers. I see people working from home more with better technology while exploring their own online presence or business simultaneously. I see entertainment from peers becoming more of a norm. Instead of watching TV we now watch each other. While the sun is still in Aries in April you should capitalize on Taurus being in the second house of earned money. Buy some new gear and figure out how to live the good life with all of the money that you make.

Aries Horoscope April 2019

1st house in ruling Aries: Sun is exulted in a high, critical degree (29) of Aries while opposite the full moon and conjunct Chiron and Mercury. Scorpio is going to kill anything not necessary. Know this. This is pretty much another Halloween in my opinion, with a Full Pink Moon in Scorpio. It’s the end of Aries for the Sun (masculine, fire) and the start of the Moon in Scorpio (feminine, water). This is a heavy vibe of man vs woman. The patriarchy giving way, not to a matriarchy, but to a new view of women.

Your secret weapon this month, and especially in the 10 days surrounding the Pink Full Moon in Scorpio April 19th, relies on your ability to integrate Yin and Yang energies. Feminine and Masculine energies need to balance within the individual. Think carefully before expressing yourself. Your job is to be the suave communicator in any group situation. Mercury and Neptune are insisting right now that communication be nice to keep your ship afloat. You are in deep, dark, unknown waters right now. As my Grandmother Marcella would say, “Be nice, be nice, be nice!” Try it.

Mercury and Mars are heavily tied together right now. Mercury is in Aries, a sign Mars rules. Mars is in Gemini, a sign Mercury rules. This is a strong unity between air and fire. Your ability to avoid having your fire put out by all of the water energy is by utilizing the air quality of communication. Savvy communicating right now will pull your flame up into more oxygen and keep it burning. If you feel the water energy is unavoidable, like a campfire on a rainy night, you want to rely on other elements within your chart as your strengths. When in doubt seek cover. Your success depends on your ability to keep your cool and be diplomatic in all situations. Take the higher road! Don’t sink to the levels of low vibrational people. Evil people are willing to go to lengths that you wouldn’t consider. They always self destruct in time. Don’t commit any knee-jerk reactions right now. Just know that you are the warrior and your time will come. Lay low til the water dries up.

Gut Response

I can’t even turn on the television at all anymore without a visceral response of nausea. It always involves the constant beating down of someone strong or building up of someone weak. It’s basically an exhibition in nonsense. It’s maddening. At this point I have no sense of ego because of all of the repeated beatings in my own life. I was bullied by other women all through school. I kept to myself and endured the occasional hallway fight where I inevitably got 3 days off, a nice break from my work week or athletics schedule. Everyone always hated me so I started to hate myself. In college I was always jogging to get away from everything. I lived in a dorm that didn’t have a meal plan, as to avoid interactions with other people as they always ended up being painful…usually like a loss in brain cells but sometimes a long blunt emotional degradation. Like you obtain some sense of belonging for a brief second, in something people refer to as friendship, then there is the slash to break you down and send you even lower than you’d ever been before. Jobs generally result in some sort of caste system and leering men. The leering leads to stabs from women breaking down the physical appearance, conjecturing with colleagues about assumed plastic surgery, commenting on attire, and even researching my online presence…which always leads to awkward interactions at work and more difficulty in establishing domicile. Dating life between abusive relationships involves stalkers or people who want an ego boost at my expense. So I am just sitting here right now totally emotionless and I realize that I’m beyond humble at this point. I have no ego. I’m just completely numb, devoid of any substances or mind-altering pharmaceuticals. I figure that there is no point…at this point. If I drink I’ll feel crazier for a while then low to a point that’s unmanageable. If I present myself this way in public I feel guilty for subjecting others to the awkwardness of my mental state if I do anything as bold as talk. There is nothing that comes out of my mouth that doesn’t warrant an immediate grimace with a step back. Ohhh…she’s strange. I’m gonna go over here and drink like an asshole and find someone who’s ugly as fuck to discuss how strange she is, and possibly whether we should try to trap her into a sex crime, or whatever “normal people” do after popping their daily dose of gut microbe destroying synthetic serotonin that the government provides to those smart enough to chill under radar. Is that what I need?

East of Eden – The rise of Vedic Astrology – Podcast

Vedic Astrologer

Update: This Podcast was recorded when I was working at the TransAmerica Data Center in Cedar Rapids, Iowa this winter. Thought I’d explain what it’s about since it’s listed under Astrology. There’s a lot more than that going on… It’s interesting to me looking back now because at the time this Podcast was recorded I had NO intent to ever move back to Las Vegas. This day I was scraping ice off of my car and started considering why I left Iowa in the first place, so many years ago. I think that the considerations that I’m discussing propelled me into a better reality. Talking things out really does help! The beauty of a Podcast is your conjecturing might be helping others out too. We don’t always have people directly around us who are at the same frequency or who have the same frame of reference. I think that our frequencies shift often.

I have now realized that my resume is worth a lot more in a casino vs. in a data center on a community college campus. My livelihood is worth a lot more too. Being broke and bored doesn’t help anyone. I tried for three years straight to find my place in Iowa. I even tried to create a place. To somehow segment a group of friends, family meetups, and fun things to do. It just didn’t happen. Hopefully living my own best life can energetically bring more happiness to everyone I know. We only bring others down when we ourselves are miserable. You can’t be supportive in that mindset.

That said, I hope this Podcast can bring people up since it’s pretty entertaining. I have new world views on things since I absolutely have been not only guided spiritually, but actually carried by some force that is greater than myself. And this would be multiple times. Near death experiences, magic, time slowing down, hopping tracks, spells, potions, eternal life, and of course miracles.

Topics in this Podcast include: Warming things up before you take off, what makes reality stars fun to watch, the North Pole shift over the last few decades likely affected climate change, 5D reality could destroy the sun if creeps learn about it, a response to Kanye West’s TMZ rant, why nightclubs are the best, why YouTube is confusing, red vs blue 3D culture, and discussions of the Polar Vortex in the midwest that was happening at the time. Enjoy!

How to avoid pneumonia and bronchitis using ancient knowledge – 6 steps to becoming a lung zen master

After studying Feng Shui, Eastern Medicine, Holistic Medicine, and even Astrology, I’ve applied different techniques in my own life as a sort of trial and error. Being predisposed to catching pneumonia and having had a severe case of bronchitis as an adult, I can recognize the chest pressure and fluid-filled lungs that signify onset of these two potentially debilitating illnesses. I thought that I’d share a little about my experiences with these common winter illnesses, explain how to identify their onset, and how to treat the initial symptoms before you end up seeking medical care, missing work, and potentially ending up on some hard-core antibiotics. Raise your vibration and save the meds for when you REALLY need them.

A quick side note: Because of my history with antibiotics I developed a case of resistant, systemic bacteria twice in my life. One was MRSA from a spa and the other was Pseudomonas from the beach. After these experiences I am keen on re-building my immune system. I think that moderate exposure to germs in everyday life is okay. I don’t overly sanitize my hands or avoid public places. I worked from home for the last year and am now re-entering the workplace in flu season. The doctor at my recent checkup offered me the flu and pneumonia vaccines for this season and I declined. Hopefully my methods are going to keep my resilience up but nothing is guaranteed in this life as we all know.


When I got bronchitis as an adult I had a fever of 104 and missed an entire week of work. My family had come to visit be in Las Vegas, where I was living at the time. I was unable to do anything with them. I remember my mom and brother sitting on the couch in the living room of the house where I was living with my roommate and his dog. The rest of the week I just remember being in bed. I was completely out of commission. Identifying bronchitis vs pneumonia is essential in seeking treatment as bronchitis is often environment related at the beginning. Being exposed to allergens such as smoke and dust can lead to irritation and a build up in the mucous membranes of the lungs. This provides an environment where bacteria can flourish. They’ll move in and tell all of their friends. At that point you’ll need the antibiotics and be in the sort of shape where I ended up when I was working in the smoke-filled casinos. Bronchitis can also result after having the cold and flu viruses. If it does you will likely end up on antibiotics because the inflammation from the primary illness causes secondary bronchitis which is bacterial. This is why it’s important to take measures at the first signs of illness. This can prevent your illness from developing.


Growing up I had pneumonia at least seven times. I had major issues related to having a diaphragmatic hernia and the pneumonia was likely related to a weakened immune system and a collapsed lung. I remember being on amoxicillin and penicillin a lot. I remember liking the bubblegum flavored medicine. Unfortunately the exposure to antibiotics early on may have built up a resistance to dangerous strains as I experienced as an adult. Prevention is key, but once the onset of pneumonia is realized it is often necessary to treat with antibiotics.

Both illnesses give that heavy lung feeling and pressure in the chest. It’s not a raspy feeling, which can actually be good. It’s a sign that the mucous is ready to start releasing on its own. When you feel the pressure, however, with no sign of relief, you could be gearing up for a long endeavor and should try everything in your power to prevent further onset. Raise your vibration and get your environment in optimal order.

First line of attack: Clean out the lungs

As my telltale symptoms started coming on last week with the minus 35 degree windchill (yes, Farenheit), I started with putting hydrogen peroxide into a vaporizer. The thought behind this is that hydrogen peroxide is used to clean wounds. Pneumonia and some types of bronchitis are treated with antibiotics. I figure the way to topically treat the lungs as if they were wounded would be to breathe something that kills bacteria, like hydrogen peroxide. I’m still mobile so whatever was on-setting did not completely take hold. I started the hydrogen peroxide vapor to kill bacteria in my lungs when I breathe it in. If it works or if it doesn’t work could all be related to mind over matter, but in these instances it’s good to attempt SOMETHING instead of sinking into “I’m sick” mode. Then you will absolutely end up in the hospital.

Boost the frequency of your air with rose oil to up your immunity.

Rose has the highest frequency of most common essential oils. Raising your vibration will keep you out of the hospital. Use rose essential oil in your vaporizer too. I actually threw it in with my hydrogen peroxide and some alkaline water. I’m also reckless. But if you’re feeling wild you could mix them all together in one swift dose. Otherwise do them one at a time.

I haven’t researched the chemical reaction between peroxide and rose. Really, it could be amazing or it could result in something like when I put my vodka and cucumber in the Nutribullet with some lemon. EEK. It was like a sip of poison before I threw it out. Not sure what that was symbiotically but don’t ever blend those things together. Gross!

At the first sign of chest pressure or fever start Echinacea

I got some Zesty Orange Original Airborne this time because I like the added Vitamin C and other vitamins and minerals that have been pre-determined to work together harmoniously. Echinacea always stops colds and fevers for me if I catch them soon enough. Some people go for zinc in Zycam as their end-all illness remedy. Echinacea is what works for me so it must depend on what you’re pre-disposed toward. My old boss was obsessed with Zycam and had it stockpiled in the employee cabinets along with snacks and a fridge filled with every type of soda imaginable. He’s also a Gemini and I know that Gemini is on the opposite side of the zodiac from Sagittarius (which I proudly am). I figure that the zodiac signs more pre-disposed toward evil would do well with Zycam. Just kidding. I’m sure that there are Geminis out there with redeeming aspects to their charts. Maybe a moon in Taurus or Leo/Virgo rising? I have the best results with Echinacea. I’d really be interested to know who does better with Zycam and who does better with Airborne. Maybe Zycam is better for head issues like split personalities and a propensity toward extra-curriculars. I guess it’s none of my business.

Feng shui rules: Water evaporates with fire

Dry out the up air and clean up the low air. The use of the vaporizer on the ground helps to ignite the Qi, or life force in my being.

Libra rules the heart chakra. It’s an air sign. Clean up your air with a vaporizer. Add hydrogen peroxide instead of some of the water and boost it with rose oil. Use distilled or alkaline water. Nothing from the tap. That’s garbage.

I took the glasses of water off of the night stands. Each night we would go to sleep with a glass of water on either side of the bed. I thought about the Feng Shui I learned while I was doing Real Estate and staging homes. You are never to put a picture of water above the level where water could physically reach on your body without compressed or hindered function. In Feng Shui this is essentially drowning yourself. That’s why it drives me nuts when I see Monet’s bridge paintings placed high. Good way to drown your business.

Water is very destructive but also essential for life. Learn to use it to your benefit! Never piss a Scorpio off, be a Cancer’s BFF, and watch Pisces like a hawk. Pisces is the most advanced placement of Rahu you can get. They understand that life is about learning, and that living is about enjoyment and taking what you need to survive. Thus a Pisces, like water, can conquer everything. They are also the most likely sign to sit in despair and say, “Now what?” Just like Scorpio murders your entire family and then feels bad about it, Pisces and Cancer can be equally brutal in their own ways. Those dealing with lung conditions should enhance the fire aspects of their charts when dealing with a lot of water. You want to get some balance in there. Air supply.

I thought also about the fact that my boyfriend and I are both fire signs. It makes sense that water puts out fire. The glasses of water were at the level of our faces and chests. We were essentially drowning, at least as I can see relating to Qi. I moved all water or liquid to a floor shelf across the room. The vaporizer was also on the floor and moistening the air with antibacterial and high vibration cold steam. I replaced the water glasses with a green or pink candle on either side of the bed.

Color therapy indicates that burning a pink or green COLORED candle improves function of the heart chakra. A blockage here can also benefit specifically from a rose quartz or emerald crystal. Clear crystals often clean so are good to boost other crystals or candle effects.

I gave my boyfriend a yellow candle because I think he has a Solar Plexus issue, but I didn’t say that. He definitely needs a candle there instead of the water. And maybe a Tony Robbins CD. The candles seem to be helping our sleep and I’m not having symptoms with those in lieu of the water.

Buy crystals for healing.

I also suggest putting a carefully selected crystal, such as a selenite or rose quartz crystal, on either side of the bed for the purpose of clearing the heart chakra. At bed level with the candles. Drying out the vapor and igniting life force.

Selenite unblocks stagnant energy which would clear the chakras and allows the vapor to flow through the system. Selenite is cleansing to energy.

Selenite crystal bundles on Etsy. A cute gift idea. These have lavender and amethyst. Lavender, like rose, has a high vibration. It’s good for sleep. Amethyst is the best healing stone. I recommend it to anyone struggling to improve their health. Palo Santo is sacred wood that can be burned to clear energy similar to sage. It’s cleansing and enhances blessings.

I would research your individual symptoms and figure out logically where your blockages are. For me, my heart chakra is the area that was feeling the impact. The heart chakra can also benefit from a large rose quartz.

Rose quartz is the love stone. It’s beneficial for pets, as well as healing the heart chakra in humans. Any maladies in the chest cavity can be related to blockage in the green heart chakra. Not sure how this translates to pink but I do think that they look fantastic together.
Hint: Put the crystals out in the sun to cleanse them during the day.

The energy from these stones is easy to feel. You can hold a rose quartz and feel its charge. If you don’t feel energy from it it’s probably a dud. Or you’re a dud. But I’d try a different stone before admitting that. Because it’s important to find a real rose quartz, or citrine in my boyfriend’s case, I don’t recommend buying them online. That is, unless you are ordering on Etsy from a highly rated seller or with some sort of certification. There are a lot of fakes on the internet. A fake quartz stone has no effect, other than the placebo effect. Some stones are very rare to find in their authentic forms and even expensive.

Dorothy went to the Emerald City for a reason. She needed to find the Tin Man his heart.
I’m so heart chakra right now. All those years with unrequited love really took a tole on me.

Or in my boyfriend’s case:

He took an Iowa beating and lost his boyish good looks in Doomsville. I have to drag him everywhere. It’s really hard on me and makes my lung condition worse.

Tea Time: Get some Manuka, Honey

We’ve been drinking tea with various herbs and put honey on everything. Honey has antimicrobial properties. Especially Manuka Honey.

Manuka Honey might break the bank. It’s imported from New Zealand and a good batch from a reputable beekeeper can be $100. The benefits are endless.
Honey is GREAT for its antimicrobial properties related to the lungs but also has a whole host of other wonders. Such as fixing pretty much everything gut related. Have some tea with honey and lemon to help with Solar Plexus blockages. You might get a better singing voice too, but no guarantees. Click for more info on wonderful Manuka Honey

I’ve been feeling better since doing these small changes. I have my energy back enough to be inspired to write a blog. That’s a big deal. Healing the soul is key in raising your vibration, which in turn eliminates illness. Keep rose oil around and use it in a diffuse or buy a rose candle to keep your environment vibrating high.

Click the frequency chart to learn more about the Johns Hopkins study that led to the creation of this chart.

Also keep in mind your astrological chart. I am a fire sign so I need to dry out. I might be more pre-disposed to winter illnesses and fluid build up when not vibrating at optimal frequency. If you are a water sign or have other aspects in your chart you may benefit from other healing and wellness methods.

Final remarks: Astrology

Pay attention to where Mars sits in your chart. What house is it? What does that house determine? For me Mars is in the 12th house. This means that I’m fighting battles in my sleep. Mars is a hot planet so I feel that water by the bed makes me drown. The location of Mars in your chart can indicate where you experience troubles.

Lung ailments are closely related to the heart chakra. Learn more about the heart chakra and what may be causing blockages.

Keep an eye out for potential connections in your own life to blockages you may have experienced. What chakra may have been involved in your hardship? What caused this chakra to become blocked? What ended up clearing the blockage to release you from the burden? These are very important questions for understanding your own predispositions. Keep an eye out for common occurrences in your life. As my lungs have issues, perhaps you have trouble expressing yourself and it expressed in a thyroid issue. This is just an example. Or society beat you down too much and your liver gave out from self-imposed guilt drinking, and then your nervous system went haywire and every ailment you’ve ever had started hurting again. These are another example. The chart below is a great place to start in understanding chakras.

I’ll write more blogs on planets and predispositions. I’ve been studying these for a year now hard core. And I don’t hate water signs, they’re just a detriment to my personal health. It’s horrible recognizing that bias yet as essential as avoiding cobras.

Everyday I’m doing seminars and tutorials on astrology, vedic astrology, and reading charts. If anyone reading this has questions on their chart I’ll be opening up an interactive section on here soon. There will be vlogs and personal readings will be available. I’ll do my best to help you figure out what planetary aspects may be at hand regarding your current circumstances. Thanks for stopping by my blog! Have a healthy and happy February. Stay warm. We’re almost done with Winter and Spring is right around the corner!


Rethinking the DSM

What if multiple personalities are just different realities in a quantum physics regard? If you are able to quantum leap you would simply take any given moment where multiple realities converge, and based on your “mood” change the course, or bend reality into any converging reality. The other personalities could be living converging realties, they would have to, if they were to converge again but more likely a new personality would have not been experienced before if it were in the case of this happening, though the potential would be infinite. If this were possible it would be possible to take the history of any reality and opt that previous course in a given moment given the previous outcome had not been previously known or documented…to one’s knowledge. This would mean that anything that you accessed online, say on YouTube, could be a product of any previous dimension, so the potential for what we can access on the internet is contrived by our own consciousness at any given moment for what is potential and anticipated. This would explain watching a tarot reader, for example, and having the reading apply strangely to one’s own life to a T almost.